juz nw went to try dear de bike n den wow lao it was heavy lo, more heavy den the 2b bike, n my god de hw m i goin to take class 2 license if it's heavy sia, haiz oh ya i hafn even pass my practical 1 yet, n i think so far already think im mad n crazy already haha...from sharin the experience in those ladies forum n wow all of them are like so clever sia, muz take them for example den i can take my 2b well n haf a determination oso. k let's count 2 wks from now, i shld b able to book practical 1, den renew my membership le. i wil jia you jia you de, all the gers wil support mi de rite. haha...so thick skin :P

i've been thinkin shld i go learn my bike ant, bt den my glove haf throw away liao le, im scare im like last time cant control the bike well n cant balance it well, seein so many gers tat ride, if i stil dun go n learn den someone wil say, *u dun even haf a bike license i dun understand y u inside sbf doin wat* tis phrase i wil always remember bcoz it was say by shoei. yes n it is him hu say mi
bt den wat abt my dental payment i stil gt $700 hafn pay yet. haiz wat m i doin to do, i noe tat my cdc account stil left $90 which means i stil can learn a few practicals bt den i haf fail 3 times, n im pai seh to go n being laugh by the instructor or those ppl hu are learnin their class 2a n class 2. n no ppl pei mi go learn all the while gt dear pei mi go here go there, bt nw if i wana go learn bike no ppl pei mi go wor, wat m i suppose to do haiz shld i go n learn ma, dear has always encouraging mi go n learn n i think he wil definitely support mi go learn de, bt den i cant concentrate sia, eg the close throttle open throttle clutch the gear all tis kind n cdc de bike de brake is so hard to brake sia, haiz wat m i goin to do, alot of ppl haf been encouragin me. bt yet haiz i stil dun dare go n learn. i already gt one scar on my hand liao le, wat if i stil gt another scar den wat m i suppose to do sobzzz.... n i wun b nice liao le. a nice body juz gif mi ruin like tat. teach mi wat shld i do. haiz n im scare i oso dun haf any future so wat gd reason shld i gif myself to go n learn bike??? haiz.....if i really 1 2 go n learn den i shld learn balancin my bicylce well 1st b4 go learnin the bike...haiz....sad, sobz....vex n confuse....

i noe someone is regret knowin me, u can choose to back out now, i dun mind, anyway i noe myself well, im a person wif no future if choosin to leave mi, i dun blame u, i did say b4, tv is my favourite thing which i likes, plus u gt too many appointments n u cant keep on askin mi to join which i dun like rite, i noe u are upset wif mi, bt wat can i do, since u need gf tat can accompany u more often den u go find 1 lo, go find a gf tat can accompany u everi min, everi sec n everi day. i 1 2 enjy my day, dun 1 2 argue wif u, anyway dun think tis wk wil meet u up, since u gt so many appointments which u cant miss any of them. so let it b lo, u go do ur stuff while i go do my stuff, i dun bother u le, u continue go use ur computer ba. bcoz i noe u wun watch tv de as i noe u dislike watchin tv shows. bt i like u cant stop mi.

sobz i juz kana sack from the tan tock seng hospital reason is tat i do things too slow liao le sobz im born to do things slow de ma wat can i do wor, tis is the 2nd time liao le, m i destinated to work as a sales girl rather den work in a office sobz im really sad, my heart is like being stab into pieces sobz and now im sick due to nt drinkin enough water sobz maybe im stupid enough yes n i agree i shld have go die the few yrs back, and i wouldn have the pain rite now, no friends to talk to and where have my friends gone to. they have disappeared since the separation of our sec 4. all gone totally gone, now wat state m i, if i had known tis situation i shld have stay at loyang there my colleagues all there. there are much more fun and i wouldn b so sad now, all bcoz of the 2pid nitec, bcoz of u the 2pid nitec coz mi lost the job tat i like. i hate 2pid nite. now wat m i a ghost or a half dead half ghost i totally no mood at all, i dun feel like eatin i dun feel like anything rite now, im dead a person tat is totally no feelin at all. sobz... haiz wish i didn born in tis world to have so much of pain