had a tiring day. busy keying 46 days of sales into the spreadsheet. faint.... next time shld not find a retail or F&B line job. it's a tiring thing once u are on leave n ur colleague couldn cover for you. then u are goin to die when u go back to office. haha....
thinking back, since last week i start to have this emotion thing maybe is due to Joey's reaction. maybe i mind or think too much le, juz like wat dear everi time say to me. i really think too much or im too sensitive le. it seems to me that i'm a invisible to her whenever she got problem she always tok to Maggie, maybe they are good friends n good ex colleague. but now i noe that Joey didn really treat me as invisible still can chat wif her. maybe is only me that really think too much le.
than came to my cousin, was really hurt when i read her email. she keep on sayin that i have changed in sense of my attitude to her, n she keep on pouring wet blanket on me. i noe she worried for me but wat i need is the support from her n nt keep on pouring wet blanket. 及然她把我说的以问不之 so what for i still need contact with her. i shld not contact her at all from now on. i tot she really noe me but in the end all i can see from her is all the bad comments. i heard enough of these comments, from work n from her. this is the path i choose so y dun u congrats me n not keep on pouring wet blanket. i hafn even married yet n u already curse me divorce is miserable. WTF.... i really hate her...
突然间我发现我真的无法承受那么多的打击。one come after another. it's really veri tiring you know. thinkin back all these years, i really didn spent much with you guys. my world suddenly become only him but no one else. 可能是因为我太依赖他了没有了他我真得无法想像我还能不能自持的住. from not really like him until now i cannt live without him. i did try to make a gathering but it turn out all not successful hw come. i oso dunno haizz... everi time i tried to organise a gathering, the response is always negative or juz totally no news at all. 我真的心毁一冷了，一次又一次的failure. i still remember last time we use to have a meet up on everi sat. but rite now, i still remember there's once i went out with you all, n the words u all tok i totally dun understand. frm there then i realise i couldn walk into the world u guys have. wat APL, n blah blah blah~~~~~ all i totally dunno at all. maybe tat time i give up le. i couldn blame anyone for this but myself.