Dream

dardar last night i was just asking if you can come to my dream and you did but is so unreal because i saw you coming back to life. is it you also wish that you can come back to life too? are you blaming me? xiao gu n marilyn came back specially to accompany me im doing ok with their companion but once im alone i start to miss you and your voices. what am i going to do. xiao gu ask me not to keep blaming myself but i cant help it. without ur financial support how am i going to survive. we are so used to your chauffering of fetching us here n there. now we got to take public transport. everybody used to say i have a tai tai life n even ah ma also say i had a good life but now i no longer had that anymore. who is going to protect us from now. who is going to protect me. who is going to protect the kids. i really wish it did happen that you come back to life. where are you now. i miss your voice but i couldnt find any video of you. all are the kids and when is the last time we even took a couple pic. all the pic are the family pic. i can no longer shop as freely as i can. why you dont want to continue pamper me why. since you have pamper me since 2004 why not continue why. i can no longer go back to the usual life that i used to have. nobody is going to pamper me pamper the kids from now on.