First day without you around

dardar, jenny offer to fetch the kids to sch for this whole week. next week onwards they will be on their own liao. the sch principal say they will arrange sch bus to pick them up. didi heard if morning need to take train to sch he abit reluctant i told him there will be sch bus. he say he will take sch bus. but coming back part i dont know if the 2 boys want to continue take mrt back home or take sch bus. since now we have already apply for the FAS and sch bus is free for us. i dont what time the boys slept last night but for me i really is cry until slp. even now when im typing here i still trying to hold my tears. will i cry until im blind ma. i have been crying since last thurs. i really miss you so much to the extent i went to customise a plushie with your face in it. and i also browse through our picture our last couple pic is in year 2020. ever since got the kids we always take pic of the kids we hardly had a couple pic. i miss holding your hands. i miss your warmth. i miss your hug thats why i went to customise the plushie with your face in it. so i can hug it i just want a hug from you. and to replace the space that is empty at the bed. dar you know now i will go apply any financial scheme i have right even though i know ur cpf can last me for quite sometime. but i still got until end of this year to go and plus if can i also dont wish to bother your sis too much. when you are around that time you always dont like to bother people also. but your sis now is holding the bai jin for me and even though i somehow abit dont like it but nvm since your sis say will transfer to me if i need the money.