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daradar, i got so much things to tell you just that this week no time to come inside here to tell you. last sun brought ur gal to her frien birthday party and you know where is it? is at punggol coast the indoor playground which we pass by that time, then i even tell you probably can bring the kids come here n play. then you for didi n meimei probably yes but not for dylan coz he too big liao le. i didn know that place can hold birthday party some more. then after that bring her go sushi-go have dinner. then we took bus 104, and it was a long journey despite the bus stop is just behind our block. we board the bus at 7pm and by the time we reach home is around 7:30pm liao le. frm sky bright until sky dark haha what a journey. and i think i KO before 10pm on sunday night. i was too tired liao le this week is a busy week for me also, mon went to have my facial then tues went out to meet angeline to discuss our insurance. we need to downgrade the plan coz is way too expensive for me to pay liao le when you are not around. and even if next time i go out work there's no way i can afford it also. so we sign the form to downgrade the plan. then i also ask her if there's any life insurance with savings for the kids. she say she told you to buy last time but u keep on refuse it. if you have bought it then maybe now we not so worried about the money lor. then today i went to kovan to purchase the fish, last sat i went to transfer all the fishes to the small tank so i can wash the big tank. and you know what, all the fishes die except for the sucking fish which is still alive. i went back to buy back the exact same fish and i didn know is so tiny, i ask the sales guy the fish will grow big de ar he say yes will grow de. how come that time i ask you is it the fish grow big you still say this type of small fish wont grow big de. even the sucking fish also grow until big big lor. i also bought another colour of sucking fish. since meimei is so scare of the black colour sucking fish. then after that come back i went for my heart appointment, everything is ok as per what the doctor has say. but still i thinking of doing up a WILL. don't know if i should go find Lum to do it or just get it outside from other lawyer? tml going to the IT show to hunt for the laptop. my laptop sometimes can feel the electric feeling and the top part is so hot, the harvey norman salesguy say the motherboard is dying soon. so hopefully tml can find a laptop thats below $2k. and then fri the boys no sch so thought of bringing them to nex to have lunch. dylan say want to learn how to take bus 104, so i got to teach him how to take the bus back. oh and sis finally ok to open a joint account with me to manage your bai jin, thats after wei long suggest to me de, he say why the bai jin is with her since is meant for me and the kids. and many people also ask me the same question, i told them i got no idea, i only say maybe she scare i anyhow spend money but nevertheless now at least i can see the money and i have the card and withdraw the money as and when. is still not so bad after all. and your big son, ms low call up yesterday and say classmates of dylan highlight to her that dylan keep saying he feel like dying because life is so meaningless. no meaning in life. you know last yr you are aware of his situation and now you are gone his situation might have gone worse. he keep saying he have depression, i told him you know what depression means, he say he is sad of everything. sad of you, sad of exam sad of everything. im scare the pressure on him is high due to the PSLE. and everyone surrounding him keep tell him to do well to make you feel proud. i dont know is it due to this issue thats why he is so sick of life. or is depression inherited? you know junda commit suicide is due to depression, and when i'm young i also got the thought of suicide. i tell sis about it. she say let's spend more time with him and monitor him. he tried to negiotate with me regards to the bedtime, he say he cannt slp so early. i told him get him to be in bed by 9:30pm doesn mean he will fall asleep so fast. i want him to keep his mind clear. and if can proves to me that by 9:30pm he settle everything then i shall nag less at him. which he has done so. i only remind him abt the time. and so far he has been keeping it. i told him to keep it up. oh and that night i dreamt of you again, and this time round you can talk, you say to me you are back. which i think you are, coz 2 weeks ago that saturday meimei de lantern the music suddenly on by itself. and i thought is the boys who are awake and accidentally kick it. but nobody is at the living room. so my only thought is you are trying to wake me up coz the timing is the timing need to bring owen for his swimming lesson. so need to settle his breakfast. oh i also bringing the boys go visit you next week and i also bringing the first batch of kim zua down. whether you can receive it anot is another issue, at least i want to buy for you the thought of it, sis told me not to overbuy. i didn dare show her the batch that i bought yesterday haha...