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dardar, last sun went to weilong house as usual for the cny gathering. but this time round we were late coz need to wait for meimei n didi to finish their music n drum lesson. n the didn stayed long also n also notice they never do the lohei as well. not sure is it everybody also dont have the mood like me. and we are the last to leave wei long fetch us home and we are chatting and wei long say if the starhub entertainment we are not watching we should cut down. and as for the bai jin that sis is holding he suggest we open a joint account so i can monitor if not if anything happens again i got no access to it. so i msg sis for suggestion to open a joint account n she agreed. so yesterday we went to nex n open a joint account in ocbc branch n follow by lunch. last night had a argument again with ur boy haiz i really duno hw to communicate with him, his time management is really a issue n no initative which you also aware of it de. n his maths seems to downgrade also, never improve. i also duno is it due to you not around anymore thats why he also cant pull himself up. whenever i passby yakun i always have the memory of you and me having breakfast together. and to think of it that was the last breakfast we had together that day. n on saturday the music lantern at living room suddenly turn on the music, i thought is the boys that wake up accidentally kick it and when i come out nobody is in the living room. and i was telling the boys maybe is ur dad that trying to wake me up coz need to prepare breakfast for owen n get ready to go for swimming lesson. i wish you really in the house but in another form of presence, at least i still can feel you. i duno whether is it really you or just part of my wish thinking. then last night got this mummy she msg me this nurse course and ask me can try. i told her nurse need to work shift and who is going to help take care of my gal in the night. i duno she got no brain or what even though i know her intention is mean well but i got no extra help leh she different she got maid, got fil and got husband. and she only got 1 kid. im different i got 3 kids and plus u no more around so meaning i lagi no more help at all. and i can't afford to continue to go study also. and she knows our 5 yr old gal will be sticky same like her gal and she still can suggest this type of idea to me. rubbish thinking. really is speechless.