daily life

dar, is been 1 month ever since you left us. i rather you come back then depend on your money to live on. last fri meimei told me she misses papa, i went to print out our family picture and intend to put it at our wall, i so scare the kids will forget how you look like eventually when they grow up. especially meimei coz she only 5 yr old. to think that her first time of taking plane with you could be her last with you. i have make appointment myself with counsellor tml. i also need help. last week i met up with another fellow mummy whom lost her hub 2 yrs ago, her hub is even younger. same thing as you but he only age 35. n her 2 kids is even younger then ours. hers back then is only like 5-6 yr old. and now they can tell their mummy that they already forgotten how their dad looks like despite their family is full of their dad de picture. then she told me for the past 2 yrs none of their in law mention about her hub name also. and then slowly the hub friends used to hang out together now also seldom meet up. i also afraid this will happen to your 3 kids as well. i dont want them to forgot you. i want them to remember your doting on them your laughter your scolding your playing your teaching etc.... i also scare your bunch of friends also will meet up less since you not around anymore. but i think we will still meetup like when you were still around i guess? i was told to slowly process my grief. as i was writing this i still tears. there's so much to tell you. you know tyler our neighbour he had ADHD, which we didn even know about it. i met up with his mum last week and i was told she quit her job in sept last yr to take care of tyler. she say tyler is now taking medicine for the ADHD and is quite severe type. then i told her about you, coz now the 2 boys is taking sch bus to sch, so she ask what happen. yesterday jenny fetch us out for dinner together with Zhongren they all, then we are chit chattting about your kids. you know what your small son did ma. first he went to reset your apple password on the day you cremate. then he went to purchase roblox credit. dylan told me he keep on hearing those purchase sound and i'm like cannot be coz you never save your credit card details in it. but i was wrong i re-login n notice you paid for some subscription so i went to remove your card payment instead. then dylan ask permission for 1 game so i paid for it. then subsequently on the 24 jan your small son hack into dylan roblox account n steal all his items away if not is delete the items away. then make dylan cry so in return i purchase some credit for dylan. and i forgot to remove the payment method. your small son did the apple reset password again on the 6 feb and went to purchase roblox credit and minecraft subscription. i scolded him, then in the night dylan told me can he beat owen up i ask why. he say coz he anyhow spend money i told him is ok i already scold him. i told them if i cant discipline the 2 of you i will pass the discipline to your 姑丈 i told them he is even more fierce then you. and dylan give a look at me. i told you i will try not to keep on scold them. dylan is so scare of my nagging now haha i told him i use to nag at your dad but since now your dad is not here i got no choice but to nag at you. yesterday i also make them change their bedsheet together with me. didi got to take his whole junk of plushie out before i can change the bedsheet. now i know why u dislike changing their bedsheet coz of their plushie.