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dardar, that day dylan ask me why time past so fast. to me where got fast i find it slow because life without you seem so slow. he find it fast because he having his WA this week and then in another 7 more months is his psle liao le. yesterday i went to see dr choi for my sore throat and you must be shaking head and say whats new. your usual reply. i told dr choi my sore throat must be frm the shouting of the kids otherwise i now cut down on snacks n yet i still can kana sore throat. this few days i have been like blaming you. why you never go do a proper health checkup. why you never monitor your blood pressure liao le why when we ask you to see specialist for your prolong cough back then you also refuse. why ask you go get insurance u also refuse. my self blame n guilt starting to turn the arrow onto you. blame everything on you. why you never take good care of yourself and leave us behind. leave the kids behind, you know how much the kids misses you ma. have you ever wonder if they can ever walk out of the sadness ma especially dylan. sometimes i always say you stop being so selfish. keep saying one day if you die then how. you never think of the consequences. can we even survive when im not even working. i wish i can go back workforce but how to. who will cook for the boys to eat when they are back from sch. you know your boys are so picky. if ask them to settle their own they sure buy mcd daily de lucky i only have sore throat. what if i kana stomach flu again. then how.