Endure

dar, this year feel so weird without you around. first time bring the kids take bus go your mum place. and after that bring them back taking bus also. just now mum place your fav food at one corner of the table and treat it you are still here. and im holding my tears when im there. im still trying to adapt the life without you around. i know you wont come back to life anymore but somehow in my dream i still wishes you to come back. i wish i can forever stay in that dream. the 5 of us together. i still cant accept the fact you are gone. sometimes im blaming you that you never take good care of your health. your death is so sudden for me to accept it. yesterday brought the kids to genki to eat for dinner and when otw back home owen spoil a water bottle at the miniso. i told the staff go ask your boy for money then. i just walk off, i angrily scold your boy. this wouldnt have happen if you still here. the kids not scare of me. only scare of you.