No mood

dar, today is the first day of cny and how to stay happy when im not happy at all. if can i really dont wish to go celebrate cny at all. but for the kids sake i got to go. you are the one love playing mj every time we go mum place. this yr i played on behalf for you. the kids so not used to being take bus around especially dylan, coz he is so used to being chauffer around. not only him i also not used to it. every time we go out you are the one who will drive us around. i duno hw to enjoy the festival for the future without you around. is like my heart also dead the day you were gone. it times take to heal, times take to adapt life without you. thats what many ppl told me. and so fast the first day already ended.