yesterday nite when i was abt 2 slp, i cant stop thinkin the incident at the short circuit when i was learning my bike, i keep on thinkin abt the circuit that i throttle 2 much to cause the bike 2 ride so fast n cause me to bang against the other bikes in the row. n the more i think abt it my heart beats more faster it is, do i really wana go n take the bike ma?? do i haf the ability ma?? do i haf enough cash 2 go n book those practical ma, haiz the onli thing i can do nw is to find job n den well save enough money ba, that's the onli think tat i can do haiz

haiz my aunt has gone back to Australia le, somehow i miz my 2 cousins, haiz remember the days they spend over here makes me feel like crying. well yesteday go c movie n happen 2 c Ivan workin down there, hehe n nw was tokin 2 him, he was telling mi dunno 1 2 take car or bike n i go inside the cdc driving center de web page n den haiz dunno y, i c liao feel like taking the bike practical bcoz Yu Pei is goin 2 enroll oso, den i dunno 1 2 take ant, maybe i shld haf more practice in my bicycle 1st ba, i cant overcome my fear, i remember seeing tis lady rider post in the thread sayin tat, if u wana take bike u nid 2 haf prepare 2 die on the road or being accident, all these consequences remind me of 1 ger tat die in Kulai, n tis makes me more scare, i cant imagine if i were to ride on the road 1 day, n den nt being carefully i might juz die on the road, well tis is wat i scare 4, i scare 2 leave my dear wor, haiz...dunno y nw i haf bcom more n more timid even nw i dun even dare 2 watch the ghost show, which was my favourite last time, wat has happend 2 mi, y had i bcum so timid nw, y?? i dunno the anz myself, i cant concertrate myself when changin gear or when brake i tend 2 get nervous as i remind myself of the short circuit n the burn i get on my hand, wat if i were to go take again,n i get burn again bt more serious or even landed in hospital wat m i goin 2 do den. haiz my head pains again le although im tempted 2 go n learn bcoz i saw the gers surround mi all ridin, if i pass n i get a bike i can go out roundin bt den i scare of death, haiz i bcum more timid nowadays i duno wats make mi bcum tis, haiz anyway i stil gt 2 pay my dental fees maybe in the future den decide again ba haiz....

my aunt juz cum back frm australia on monday night, n my cousin of coz, she still so adorable n so small like a bolster like tat, so cute hor haha.....dunno y, it seems so long i like seen my dear, although we just met on my bday 4 celebration, bt it seems so long 2 mi, or izzit bcoz my aunt juz cum back n i goin 2 spend ard 1 wk wif them, as they cum back n stay only 4 10 days, well 2day abit nt feelin well leh, i dunno can make it 2 meet my dear ma, if nt got to wait til fri le, thurs is my dental appointment, finally can go dental appointment le, hmmm im waitin 2 ask the doc things wor, haiz so sian sia, everi day wake up do nthing, haiz i oso dunno wat m i doin, sucks man life is simply so sian haiz....

hehe happy birthday 2 me, happy 19 birthday, yes it is my bday 2day, 19 le wor, keke well, went to order cake juz nw, n den cum back, eat the mee sua tat my ah ma cook earlier n den i had a fall 2pid sia, bcoz my ah ma clothin drop n den i accidentally step onto it, den had a fall n it was so sway haiz so sad hmmm smell nice coz my ah ma is frying chicken wings haha....hmmm n last nite dear accompany mi inside the car till midnite 12 am juz 2 wish mi happy birthday so touching wor, despite his tiredness as he stil gt 2 do his rtt tis morning n yet he stil can acc mi til midnite, where 2 find tis type of dear wor, hu wil treat his gf as nice as a pearl wor, hmmm i juz nw go do some resize 2 my pic haha n last nite take some of the pic inside the car keke...wil post up here some other times ba :P

tis is 1 of the pic tat i like the most hmmm do i look fierce hehe

countin 2wards my bday, hmmmm.... left another 4 more days n it's oso our 5 mth anni le, keke...time flies so fast wor, dear im so touch wor, despite ur financial u stil can share the digital camera price wif mi, dear i wun dare 2 ask u frm anything le, im touch by ur action, tis digital camera will be the present 4 valentine's day oso. u doesnt nid 2 buy anything more 4 mi le, im happy 2 haf u as my dear im already so touch le. muacks luv dear, u haf done so much 4 mi, wonder when wil b my turn 2 do 4 u. maybe wat i can help u do is to help u clean up ur whole room haha....and that's when if im free 2 help u 2 clean up lo. keke....hugs

2day is the 1st day of yr 2005, isn't tat fast, yesterday was my last day at the company, i was upset wor, been working there for 4 mths le, suddenly it was my last day which was sounded quite sad, as time was abt to knock off, i was greeted by those colleagues in the company, all saying Happy New Year to me. And one of the colleague actually tel me tat say abit can't bear to see me go sia, mi 2 oso haf the feeling, haiz, after work dear fetch mi home, wait 4 mi 2 bath n change den go to his home n watch tv den after tat, go to Kallang KFC n eat n guess wat, i bumped into Yu Pei and she turn up to be Ivy's sister sia, so concidence wor, n of coz i oso gt c Shoei, n hmmmm his teeth like so yellowish sia, anyway i oso nv take much notice of him, i onli keep on tokin 2 Yu Pei, hehe n we exchange hp no again n keep in contact again, den after tat we went to Bedok Blk 85 there n haf chicken wing wif dear's friend. After finish eating, we went to Thiam Seng factory to haf sum fun, and as usual they playing games n drinking alcohol. haha n i drink abit only. coz the alcohol is too strong 4 mi le, we stay until tis morning 5+ den cum back home, well the rest still staying at Thiam Seng there, n can u believe it i actually slp 4 almost 12 hours. i myself oso can't believe it, after wake up, meet dear go Sim Lim square buy my Optical mouse n the USB port, which i'm using it rite now, the mouse seems abit weird sia, cant control it, after buying we go Heartland Mall n eat MacDonald haha den we go shop awhile den cum back home le. time flies so fast sia.... hopefully i can get inside the ite ba...