this few days really alot of things happen to me. i don't know whether am i the one who cause the problem or wat. anyway i have give hope liao le. regardless of what result it is my heart got no reaction. i don't know am i trying to bluff myself or am i trying to console myself. sometimes i wonder what i like in you. u are not romantic at all even when im angry you just don't know how to cheer me up. haiz i really don't know. maybe after all we are not really that suitable ba. let's give ourself a break ba. if u really wish to end it, well then i won't stop you also. hopefully you can find a better girl in the future ba. hopefully won't be like me so immature so childish. find a character that is the same as you, same interest as you, same age as you will be better. once a mirror is broken no matter how hard you try to put it back, it will never regain the same thing again. this is what my cousin that tell me before. the feelings will never be the same again once the mirror is broken. what i'm going to do now is concentrate on my studies. don't think i will be going to the christmas this year liao le. no reasons just don't feel like going. will i feel sad when the thing really happen. i don't know, i only know i will control myself not to drop any tears from now. if can maybe we should really give ourself a break then start all over again when we really know where does the problem lies on.

thanks for readin my blog lo. who badmouth u or say anything nasty abt u. i totally gt no idea at all lo. is u who dun 1 2 contact mi alone. i LAN LAN lo. i cant say anything. ever since u nv contact mi at all, i gt alot of problems also lo. who can i tel to. NO ppl lo. normally is u who are there to share my problems with mi gif mi advice bt now leh. u are not even there lo. i totally gt NO FRIENDS at all lo. who can i tel to i ask u. i dun even tel my bf my things lo. even when im sad or wat i just write inside my blog if nt i just keep inside my heart. i gt no ppl to share with lo. aiya forget it la, forgot u now already got ur ite friends liao le. u gt any problem can just tel them and me leh, i dun even haf a single friend lo. a close friend oso dun haf lo. last time use to be u but now since u dun bother to contact me. den i just take it our friendship ended at 2002. the yr when we graduate from xinmin secondary. our friendship is gone. no more you in my memory no more this person. u are just a HI BYE friend to me. from now i wun b bother abt ur thing ur life anything at all. i totally dun gif it a damn liao le. even u being bully by ur 2pid bf or whatever shit it is i oso wun gif it a damn.

think im going to cancel my bike thing soon. haha... can feel that there's a change in me since i return from australia. now c bike like machiam no feeling liao. gt bike den bike lo no bike den no bike lo. seldom purposely wil go n bio bike nowadays. tis is wat i sense in myself. i like australia there. haha... feel like movin there leh haha... bt nt nw la, i mean when i reach 30+ or 40+ go there enjoy. there really can relax sia. i go there onli for 13 days i already gain so much weight liao le. haha... i think hor if 1 day my ah ma really go liao i think im goin bersek. haha... i cant imagine without her in my life. she's more close to me. miss my small little cousin jing. and i miss the sky over there n the weather. k la, another 2 more mths goin to c them soon liao le. haha... they are comin back for chinese new yr wahahah... cool isn it. although my cousin can b irritatin bt den i dote them the most dunno y oso haha... k la. wil write again when im free.


nowadays keep on addicted to my maple game haha...

it's been so long since i last post. think im going to find a new blogskin haha... n im so excited to share my excitement to him haha.... got lots n lots of things to tel him haha...

is my 1st time, i feel so cold n
i felt so high and excited. i almost can feel it's coming
i feel so high up so excited n so lookin forward.
i felt so giddy but after i done it i felt so release
but im stil so cold in it. can u guess wat im tokin abt haha




its............. Aeroplane that im tokin about. haha... it is my 1st time sittin wat haha
it's been such a long time since i play my maple so im goin to play it today haha.... and i borrow 3 storybooks from my cousin. they are harry potter haha... 3 thick books sia. hopefully can complete readin when they came back to singapore next yr. n i think i gain alot of weight sia haha... keep on eat n eat haha....well think im goin to find a blogskin soon, den ask my dear help mi do liao le haha....