juz nw went to try dear de bike n den wow lao it was heavy lo, more heavy den the 2b bike, n my god de hw m i goin to take class 2 license if it's heavy sia, haiz oh ya i hafn even pass my practical 1 yet, n i think so far already think im mad n crazy already haha...from sharin the experience in those ladies forum n wow all of them are like so clever sia, muz take them for example den i can take my 2b well n haf a determination oso. k let's count 2 wks from now, i shld b able to book practical 1, den renew my membership le. i wil jia you jia you de, all the gers wil support mi de rite. haha...so thick skin :P

i've been thinkin shld i go learn my bike ant, bt den my glove haf throw away liao le, im scare im like last time cant control the bike well n cant balance it well, seein so many gers tat ride, if i stil dun go n learn den someone wil say, *u dun even haf a bike license i dun understand y u inside sbf doin wat* tis phrase i wil always remember bcoz it was say by shoei. yes n it is him hu say mi
bt den wat abt my dental payment i stil gt $700 hafn pay yet. haiz wat m i doin to do, i noe tat my cdc account stil left $90 which means i stil can learn a few practicals bt den i haf fail 3 times, n im pai seh to go n being laugh by the instructor or those ppl hu are learnin their class 2a n class 2. n no ppl pei mi go learn all the while gt dear pei mi go here go there, bt nw if i wana go learn bike no ppl pei mi go wor, wat m i suppose to do haiz shld i go n learn ma, dear has always encouraging mi go n learn n i think he wil definitely support mi go learn de, bt den i cant concentrate sia, eg the close throttle open throttle clutch the gear all tis kind n cdc de bike de brake is so hard to brake sia, haiz wat m i goin to do, alot of ppl haf been encouragin me. bt yet haiz i stil dun dare go n learn. i already gt one scar on my hand liao le, wat if i stil gt another scar den wat m i suppose to do sobzzz.... n i wun b nice liao le. a nice body juz gif mi ruin like tat. teach mi wat shld i do. haiz n im scare i oso dun haf any future so wat gd reason shld i gif myself to go n learn bike??? haiz.....if i really 1 2 go n learn den i shld learn balancin my bicylce well 1st b4 go learnin the bike...haiz....sad, sobz....vex n confuse....

i noe someone is regret knowin me, u can choose to back out now, i dun mind, anyway i noe myself well, im a person wif no future if choosin to leave mi, i dun blame u, i did say b4, tv is my favourite thing which i likes, plus u gt too many appointments n u cant keep on askin mi to join which i dun like rite, i noe u are upset wif mi, bt wat can i do, since u need gf tat can accompany u more often den u go find 1 lo, go find a gf tat can accompany u everi min, everi sec n everi day. i 1 2 enjy my day, dun 1 2 argue wif u, anyway dun think tis wk wil meet u up, since u gt so many appointments which u cant miss any of them. so let it b lo, u go do ur stuff while i go do my stuff, i dun bother u le, u continue go use ur computer ba. bcoz i noe u wun watch tv de as i noe u dislike watchin tv shows. bt i like u cant stop mi.

sobz i juz kana sack from the tan tock seng hospital reason is tat i do things too slow liao le sobz im born to do things slow de ma wat can i do wor, tis is the 2nd time liao le, m i destinated to work as a sales girl rather den work in a office sobz im really sad, my heart is like being stab into pieces sobz and now im sick due to nt drinkin enough water sobz maybe im stupid enough yes n i agree i shld have go die the few yrs back, and i wouldn have the pain rite now, no friends to talk to and where have my friends gone to. they have disappeared since the separation of our sec 4. all gone totally gone, now wat state m i, if i had known tis situation i shld have stay at loyang there my colleagues all there. there are much more fun and i wouldn b so sad now, all bcoz of the 2pid nitec, bcoz of u the 2pid nitec coz mi lost the job tat i like. i hate 2pid nite. now wat m i a ghost or a half dead half ghost i totally no mood at all, i dun feel like eatin i dun feel like anything rite now, im dead a person tat is totally no feelin at all. sobz... haiz wish i didn born in tis world to have so much of pain

dear de bike, wif 4 monsters protectin me hehe where's another monster he is dear lo hehe

yesterday went to Orang Asli n eat, and wow dear was riding 180 wif onli 3rd gear sia, i could onli hold tite dear bcoz of the strong wind i scare being flown away sia, haha....tats was thrilling, imagine on the dark road n my shirt was flying haha can imagine the cold air behind my back keke but dear say wif the top box it becomes more unstable liao sia, haha now i gt 4 monster protecting me wor, 2 side panel box, 1 top box, and where's another monster, haha he's dear lo infron of me ridin ma, hehe....so together i gt 4 monster protectin mi keke....cool hor haha.... tis mornin wake up stomach pain again haiz 2pid stomach, i hate being a ger, y i cant b a guy haiz at least guys are much more better den gers sobzz i hate it, any place of the body pain i can endure bt nt on stomach i simply juz hate it i hate it.... argh 2pid ass hole

back to blog liao le, well on valentine's day went to my cousin weddin dinner as posted their pictures below. and dear give mi a set of cosmetic haha i tot he wil give mi a perfume anyway i didn tot he wil buy me a present as we say earlier, that my digital camera wil be my valentine's present as well hmmm so naughty of him hehe and Michelle juz tel mi she might getting ROM by end of tis yr i think so haha, finally she can settle down liao i oso hope her Dom wil treat her lots better den nw hehe... anyway i told her if really ROM muz invite mi go and see wor hehe and right now im waiting for job interview le, juz receive a cal there's a job at AMK there near the SSDC bt i dun even noe where is the place, anyway i could onli be confirm when he calls me n rite now im at home watching my Young and Dangerous dvd by Ekin my idol haha luvs him lots sia wonder wat is he doin rite now wor, he looks so cool when acted as a triad leader sia, damn cool wor, his face is so yandao haha... so far i onli haf 2 idols wor, Ekin and Jimmy Lin, the rest nt so like haha tis 2 are my favourite Idols....haiz n my stomach pain 2day sia so sian goin 2 buy my panadol soon coz its going 2 finish up by mi soon haha... think im addicted 2 tis panadol for life sia haiz really wish tat there's a medicine to stop my stomach pain haiz goin watch tv le hehe blog in another time le

Their big day settle down on valentine's day 14-02-2005 happily married cheers to my cousin

Tea ceremonry serve tea to her brother, in return get a hong bao back hehe

Saying their vows as they are christian

Me and my cousin, and oh shit de i look so fat sia gain alot of weight recently haiz

happy chinese new yr...hehe...finally cum in n blog i couldn cum in is bcoz my computer was down until chu yi dear cum my hm bai nian shun pian help mi repair computer hehe...hmmm tis yr de new yr is so special sia, new yr eve stay at hm watch tv bt den after my reunion dinner went to my cousin home, tat stays in a condon wow tats was so fantastic sia.... chu yi wake up catch the part of show tat i miss out, den go dear de ah ma home, n it happen tat his ah ma is stayin at the same blk as my aunt wor, my aunt stays at 5th while his ah ma stays at 4th... so coincidence haha... tis yr is so special sia, normally alone i celebrate bt tis yr gt dear sia... 1st time go his ah ma house bai nian, after his ah ma house cum back 2 my home, bt so weird by the time we cum back, my aunts hafn even cum yet, haha n den tis yr left out 1 aunt coz another aunt was at Australia, bt she gt cal up at chu yi, n tis yr oso special we didn play the blackjack at all sia, haha until yesterday chu er, went to my ah kim place at Sengkang, we den play, n guess wat i win.... haha... we play $2 n den play double oso i take out $2 or $4 to play until the last round b4 we end i win around $20+ haha... i hardly win that much, normally i no win no lose juz nice bt tis yr i actually did win..hmmm... izzit bcoz of my luck ma... bt dear de zodiac tis yr seems 2 b in gd yr wor, dear is a house well im a cow haha... can u imagine tat when i read the character of the cow it was almost exactly like mine, i cant even imagine tat haha... well the tiger hmmm doesn even sound like mi haha...later goin Joo Gong home, den follow go Sab home, yesterday gt 1 person at Stacey's home tats y i didn go haha...thanks 2 dear sia, tis yr i feel so happy wor, n yesterday alot of ppl askin mi y my bf didn go haha... i tel my 1st aunt tat i dun intend 2 bring him go, scare later my ah kim de sister sayin things they veri gd at talkin ppl de, tats y i dun like them, humpf... say other ppl they themself oso nt so gd kns sia.... ah bish... let's c wat is my plan tml... i will be goin 2 my mother tat side 2 bai nian i alone go la haha coz onli go 2 my cousin house ma, den at nite maybe hafin dinner wif dear sec sch friends... den sun i c whether im goin 2 my teacher house or go 2 Lum's house... heard he gt dog sia, i scare wor...

juz nw went to c dear de blog...n those sadness n tears start 2 drop...although is the past bt i stil couldn't help it bt feel sad...hmmm nw u haf finish paying ur laptop loan, bt yet i didn ask u do u stil haf enough money 2 survive ma...i scare next time u wil say mi off if u dun haf any money left... bt so far i think u stil haf money 2 spend, hope im rite hehe....other den the other time i really cried becoz u say mi, i hate ppl say me, dunno y, my cousin oso dun like ppl say him... izzit almost ppl dun like ppl 2 say them or wat... after u tel mi spare a thought for u, n u doesn 1 me 2 embarrass me, n my singin is out of tune, tis 3 phrase has been in my mind ever since... i cant control bt keep on remember the word my singin is out of tune...next mon we wil go 2 Hongbao River den on new yr eve i wil sacrifice my countdown n stay at hm 2 watch the tv...coz i've been thinkin everi time my aunt ask 4 u, u wil come my hm no matter wat, n nw is my turn 2 go meet ur aunt le... if nt next time u sure wil say everi time ur aunt ask 4 mi, i keep on didn go, well, i think i oso shld put in ur shoes... bt im pai seh ma..some more my skin is nt so thick as urs k, my courage is timid im nt so brave... tats y til nw i stil dun dare go back 2 bike practical bcoz i dun haf enough courage n brave...later goin 2 c u le...so i goin bath le...

c so many gers ridin sia, 34 riders sia, faint, c liao oso wil haf abit xin yang yang sia, last sat go KK kfc den i try sittin down on Katana's bike n i actually can tip toe sia haha... didn expect it, coz dear de bike when i sit down i cant even touch the ground let alone tip toe, hmmm.... dear has been encourage me go take bike leh, bt i stil doesn wana go sia coz i scare wor, hmmm.... actually i oso dun nid any license de hor, gt dear 2 fetch mi can liao, haha.... wat makes me go take bike license in the 1st place, coz i like bike and seeing those ppl ridin sports bike is so cool, but after sittin dear de bike for half a yr i started to get scare, dunno y, maybe is bcoz i scare being buang on the road, wat shld i do 2 get over the fear, hmmm....although wif dear 4 so long n yet i cant learn anything at all, haiz car is better den bike coz protect us ma, rather den bike, haiz... wat 2 do neh, car n bike oso nid alot of money de wor, if i keep on fail my practicals all tis, i lack of brave, courage and im too tense up le.....

yesterday nite when i was abt 2 slp, i cant stop thinkin the incident at the short circuit when i was learning my bike, i keep on thinkin abt the circuit that i throttle 2 much to cause the bike 2 ride so fast n cause me to bang against the other bikes in the row. n the more i think abt it my heart beats more faster it is, do i really wana go n take the bike ma?? do i haf the ability ma?? do i haf enough cash 2 go n book those practical ma, haiz the onli thing i can do nw is to find job n den well save enough money ba, that's the onli think tat i can do haiz

haiz my aunt has gone back to Australia le, somehow i miz my 2 cousins, haiz remember the days they spend over here makes me feel like crying. well yesteday go c movie n happen 2 c Ivan workin down there, hehe n nw was tokin 2 him, he was telling mi dunno 1 2 take car or bike n i go inside the cdc driving center de web page n den haiz dunno y, i c liao feel like taking the bike practical bcoz Yu Pei is goin 2 enroll oso, den i dunno 1 2 take ant, maybe i shld haf more practice in my bicycle 1st ba, i cant overcome my fear, i remember seeing tis lady rider post in the thread sayin tat, if u wana take bike u nid 2 haf prepare 2 die on the road or being accident, all these consequences remind me of 1 ger tat die in Kulai, n tis makes me more scare, i cant imagine if i were to ride on the road 1 day, n den nt being carefully i might juz die on the road, well tis is wat i scare 4, i scare 2 leave my dear wor, haiz...dunno y nw i haf bcom more n more timid even nw i dun even dare 2 watch the ghost show, which was my favourite last time, wat has happend 2 mi, y had i bcum so timid nw, y?? i dunno the anz myself, i cant concertrate myself when changin gear or when brake i tend 2 get nervous as i remind myself of the short circuit n the burn i get on my hand, wat if i were to go take again,n i get burn again bt more serious or even landed in hospital wat m i goin 2 do den. haiz my head pains again le although im tempted 2 go n learn bcoz i saw the gers surround mi all ridin, if i pass n i get a bike i can go out roundin bt den i scare of death, haiz i bcum more timid nowadays i duno wats make mi bcum tis, haiz anyway i stil gt 2 pay my dental fees maybe in the future den decide again ba haiz....

my aunt juz cum back frm australia on monday night, n my cousin of coz, she still so adorable n so small like a bolster like tat, so cute hor haha.....dunno y, it seems so long i like seen my dear, although we just met on my bday 4 celebration, bt it seems so long 2 mi, or izzit bcoz my aunt juz cum back n i goin 2 spend ard 1 wk wif them, as they cum back n stay only 4 10 days, well 2day abit nt feelin well leh, i dunno can make it 2 meet my dear ma, if nt got to wait til fri le, thurs is my dental appointment, finally can go dental appointment le, hmmm im waitin 2 ask the doc things wor, haiz so sian sia, everi day wake up do nthing, haiz i oso dunno wat m i doin, sucks man life is simply so sian haiz....

hehe happy birthday 2 me, happy 19 birthday, yes it is my bday 2day, 19 le wor, keke well, went to order cake juz nw, n den cum back, eat the mee sua tat my ah ma cook earlier n den i had a fall 2pid sia, bcoz my ah ma clothin drop n den i accidentally step onto it, den had a fall n it was so sway haiz so sad hmmm smell nice coz my ah ma is frying chicken wings haha....hmmm n last nite dear accompany mi inside the car till midnite 12 am juz 2 wish mi happy birthday so touching wor, despite his tiredness as he stil gt 2 do his rtt tis morning n yet he stil can acc mi til midnite, where 2 find tis type of dear wor, hu wil treat his gf as nice as a pearl wor, hmmm i juz nw go do some resize 2 my pic haha n last nite take some of the pic inside the car keke...wil post up here some other times ba :P

tis is 1 of the pic tat i like the most hmmm do i look fierce hehe

countin 2wards my bday, hmmmm.... left another 4 more days n it's oso our 5 mth anni le, keke...time flies so fast wor, dear im so touch wor, despite ur financial u stil can share the digital camera price wif mi, dear i wun dare 2 ask u frm anything le, im touch by ur action, tis digital camera will be the present 4 valentine's day oso. u doesnt nid 2 buy anything more 4 mi le, im happy 2 haf u as my dear im already so touch le. muacks luv dear, u haf done so much 4 mi, wonder when wil b my turn 2 do 4 u. maybe wat i can help u do is to help u clean up ur whole room haha....and that's when if im free 2 help u 2 clean up lo. keke....hugs