well, looks like it's been quite awhile since i last blog. what have i done recently, busy studyin wat else can i do huh. hmm... tis wk is a 1 wk holi for mi, tats great isn't it haha. k got to study for my common test for next tues, when i tot i could have the money to go take my bike prac. oh for goodness sake how on earth to find the money to go for prac. haha.... searching for sponsor to sponsor mi go bike prac sia haha.. ya rite in my dream huh. tats rite haha...k well, juz finish my series 1 of sailormoon DVD haha. isn't it great. oh boy tats in my imagination when Tuxudo Mars is so hunk haha... juz like Chen Lin haha... faint, when can i stop dreamin n wake up from the reality haiz how i wish to b a kid sia, i dun wana b adult, it's forever so stressful. im nt childish k. IM NOT CHILDISH, im juz innocent tats all, tats my character isn't it ma? hmmm... i hate u keep on sayin mi childish when everi time i acts like a child. haha... tats mi ma, i like the way i'm. haiz y muz i change bcoz u ask mi to haiz... i like being a childish ger haha... bt sometimes being a childish ger looks abit hmmm weird to mi when i go out wif my buddies. hmmm... whenever i goes out with them y i always gt the thinkin tat they are stil so childish, bt when im wif him eh wat kind of mind m i thinkin, bt hey i have change alot OK. sometimes being childish wun die rite. so y cant I. so irritatin humpf~~~ well, hack care liao. got to go back n study liao haiz so sickenin n borin life....

wow, since like i have been a long time didn come in to blog liao le, well, kind of lazy to blog haha...juz came back from cameron highland, tis time round the holidays are short sia, n dear's bike broke down on the way going up haiz, sad sia, haha... bt i did enjoy myself except kana gif mosquito bite sia, so many red dots haha....n i oso take a pic of mi sittin at rachel's S4 bike haha, wait til the pic is up den post inside here haha, is cool man haha.... hopefully next time can go again haha... i wun mind go cameron again n again haha.... the places is cool, so far the onli place that i like is cameron highland haha....KL is a borin place haha... is hot n jam nothing special to shop oso haha....n i have uploaded a new song cal "LING" sing by Ke You Lun. dunno hu izzit haha coz i find the song quite nice after watching the MARS. n chen lin was so cool sia. haha... ridin the fazer wouldnt mind watch again haha... which i juz did hehe... n 2day is National day sia, n oso 1 yr anniversary wif my dear haha... so fast 1 yr liao. hmmm cant imagine sia haha.... k, well i wil stop here liao le, wil catch up wif u again ba. gt to go do my home work which i hafn even done yet. kind of lazy to do so sian, coz holiday mood ma haha....

so sian sia... haha 2day gt S&W n i dun wana go so go take mc from polyclinic haha... so sian sia... ah dear doin course cant disturb him while den im playin the maplestory game lo haha... yawnz times flies so fast hehe going to 1 yr liao sia... so fast hor.. haiz own him too much of ren qing liao le, PC money stil hafn pay him sia, den the sailormoon vcd wow seh, where can i find tis type of guy in the world. haha i tot gd guys all extinct liao le, bt im wrong stil gt some in the world haha.. ah dear is 1 of them lo. haha... well national day itself he's on duty so celebrate on the followin day. haha... well, hmmm grow up ar, mentality grow up or wat neh?? haha... haiz can i dun grow up i wana b children haha... children no headache de, adult gt alot of headache sia, worry abt money la, den relationship la, den blah blah blah.... lots to worry abt. haiz...k la i go back play game liao le so borin....

think its such a long time since i post inside here haha.... wat have i been busy wif??? busyin wif sch work lo den wat else... den busy playin the maple game haha...so dun haf time to come online. yesterday nite went to perlin n haf dinner n guess wat on the way back saw mel sia haha my cousin haha... so coincidence sia.... think later after doin my home work i den go amk find her since she's workin there 2day. haha... well in my class it happens to have a ger which i dislike so much sia she's damn irritatin n damn fan lo... dislike her to the core. haha... think she gt a irritatin face pluz her character sucks too. she's juz like a follower everi where we go she oso wana follow even to the toilet. although tis doesn happen to me bt im helpin another friend to say it out haha... coz i think quite a few of us cant tahan her way too. she's too idiotic n irritatin maybe she's stil a kid ba haha... stil dunno hw to think unlike my sec sch friends haha...well gt no choice gt to do everi thing i can to get rid of her...well gt to go do my home work liao stil hafn done yet. hmmm today dunno wana go join joo gong at bugis ma??? maybe gt go ba haha i oso veri long no c them liao le haha... especially stacey u c haha... she meetin sab n xue ni at around 2+ bt i dun think im goin dun feel like seein her face haha... so i better meet them in the evenin time haha...

weekend is goin over soon, tml is sch day again, haiz...so sian, sch starts no more goin out late late le, muz come home early get ready for the sch the next day. fri nite was a gd nite sia, met up wif a lot of female riders, gt chilli, nicholoasonbaby, narada, myusha, nedomar haha think tis all ba, all tis are the ladies riders tat i hafn met yet de all. a big thanks to finix for waitin me at the dam hehe....tire tis 2 days bt enjoyable haha...complete my homework bt muz revise abit on wat teacher teaches us ma hehe bt i cant remember any leh, maybe i was day dreamin haha k im goin to get my lunch den bath den if can meet him earlier liao le cya... :D

so tire today sch reopen, n guess wat my new class contains onli 2 guys n the oldest guy is the same age as dear dear sia, born in 1978 haha...n onli a few ppl born in the same yr as mi nia sia. saw jia liang today haha...n happen to see kai xian oso, juz nw on my way out from sch saw her bf...n i feel so hungry once i reach home. coz from mornin i eat until juz nw i reach home i den eat wor, if nt hw come i wil feel so hungry haha...n my time table come out le. Thursday is the day tat i wil reach home late. 5.15pm den dismiss from sch, so sian haiz... n tml dunno go wat Bukit Timah dunno at where n onli our class is selected. so damn borin...got to go photocopy paper later on, maybe in the evenin when i feel more cooler ba. nw i feel so tire sia, feel like slppin bt cannt if nt later in the nite i cant go back slp haiz... tml is a borin day for me again haha... bt times flies really fast, imagine next yr of 2day i wil b in 2nd yr liao le, n is the last yr haha... hopefully i can graduate frm it n move to poly. if nt go back work lo...earn more money ma.

And imagine quite a few junior from my sec sch is the same class as mi. haha cannt imagine tat rite i oso didn think of it. well, dear nw attendin course so didn msg mi all tis. stil waitin for him to haf a good tok wif him wor, we lack of communication n everi time i wana tok to him i dunno hw to face him onli noe hw to use net, which is the wrong way n tis doesn help in our relation wor. i wish next time i gt any problems i could juz tel him in face. hopefully our relation stil can survive ba. stil gt hope to amend it. go do my sch stuff le, n rest oso haha...

finally come back here le, pc juz came back to me tis mornin. n i didn noe i had made u upset again. tis 1 wk i haf been thinkin y i keep on treatin u tat way n i really dunno i myself oso feel terrible oso. haf u ever regret ur decision ma??? i really duno. u are a type of guy which most of the gers would like. i dunno y i keep on makin u upset bt how m i suppose to change my character when i haf tis character since young. i noe im a irresponsible person bt wat can i do i haf tat attitude since young. who can change mi. lack of teachin maybe tats the thing. n im always slower den other ppl, n u noe im the person tat toks wif out thinkin maybe im straight forward tats y. n maybe tis is the reason ba. i keep on wantin to haf a chance to tok to u, bt always cant find any chance haiz... i do knows tat 1 day u really wil explode ur temper n the endurance u oso wun b able to take it. i do noe of tis circumstances. i dunno when wil tis day arrive bt den i cant c anymore of future onli present bcoz of the way tat i treated u. even if 1 day, there's a ger standin in front of u tat likes u or u like her, i dun even mind bcoz i dun even treat u so gd. keep on makin u upset, if ever u can find happiness 1 day i wun mind. coz i noe the fault lies in mi, i dunno hw to b a gd gf of urs.

the leaving of mi, wouldn't take away the sky of urs.

it wil onli b a part of memory of urs, n the road we go wil b even longer den nw.

hmmm, forgot wat is the poem le. onli remember a few phase. heard tis phase from QIAN NU YU HUN. xiao qian say to shu dai haha....

it's been ages since i blog, well due to my computer was down, n there was no way tat i could blog so therefore, gt to miz my blog wil b back in a few months times. c ya

i felt so stress up, i gt to pay lots of things, my hp bill, internet bill, my dental installment, my bike practical, even nw i stil gt to help pay my home utilities. i gt lots of burden liao le, plus ITE has accepted mi, n now i oso gt to pay my sch fees myself. i cant even breathe. for now, i 1 2 earn money as much as i can. so for now, i wil start to find job liao le, no matter hw many jobs i work. n i wun b able to meet u as much as last time. for mi money is more important den everi thing else. either i gif up my bike or my studies. u cant understand wat im sayin den i say 4get it liao rite. so y stil bother n ask. i juz cant understand it. since u duno wat im sayin den dun bother to know la. kaoz... wait til im in a better mood den say ba... tml i oso dun think i wil b meetin u....

last nite outin was so fantastic haha...quite a few female riders turn up wor... seein so many female riders tis makes mi feel like chiongin to get my 2B license haha...i haf fail 5 times le, bt den well, i wil jia you de, there's definitely 1 day i wil pass my prac 1 de haha tml wil b my prac 1 again liao le haha....so nervous bt den last nite went to buy the guards le, to protect my knee cap n my elbow. i dun 1 2 fall down again sia, i wil jia you de hopefully can pass tml haha bt i dun think so ba, i muz think on positive side n nt negative side, muz haf more confident n tats the way man... cheers to those ladies riders out there...i wish myself all the best haha...

juz went to c dear de blog, n from last yr til nw, we seem to haf alot of arguein especially the first few months when im so stubborn n my temper is hot too, bt nw do we stil haf the same problem again or another problem ne, let me c wat haf i change for the past 8 months. i felt so silly last time haha... oso dunno y i haf the reaction the last time. arguein abt the pic he takes wif gers all tis bt den well, now i noe tat he can b trusted n i totally trust him. wat more could i b worry abt. n the promises i haf given all i haf done it sia... cannt sit on other guys de bike, n hmm cannt meet guys ba.. is tat so haha so tirin

hmmm i haf change the word 'dun tok to mi' tis words, which he dislike alot de haha tis is the onli thing i haf change other den tat wat haf i change so far, discussin abt meetin ppl, other ppl, all tis we haf discuss rite hmm so now gt to change my character liao le haha... i seem so bad for the first few months. guess now i could onli change for the better, tml he's goin for his thailand trip while im goin for my practical 1. i stil feel abit nervous abt it too. going slp nw le tml early mornin goin for my dental checkup den go temple pray liao le... muz remember to come back in one piece. dun 1 u 2 haf any injuries all tis & tat...dislike him to go so far especially on water festival is so dangerous when i heard kester tellin him tat it wil b dangerous so ride carefully. it gives me creeps abt it. anyway im goin to brush my teeth nw le haha....

tokin to keane nw. he just had his accident yesterday, fracture his wrist, broken knee & groin abrasion funny is his dick oso muz do dressin. i was askin him stil can haf sex after recover ma. haha so funny if cannt stand den jia lat liao. den he wil b a tai jian liao le haha...oops seems like im so evil sia...haha

whenever im sad, i go to ur blog & saw those things u post last time, it makes mi feel more sad & guilty i dunno y bt i always cry. im sorry dear i keep on makin u so stress makes u so piss off, i try to change myself k. i nid time to change my mentality my character oso. pls forgive me....my hearts hurt too everi time make u so unhappy...too tire le im goin to slp le. he's always on my mind & the promises i have make i have done it. i nid more time to change my character. tis is all build up since young i cant change overnite....

y are we always arguein abt money neh, if u always being so piss off, y nt from nw eat the meals at home, i dun mind goin home to eat de lo, is u hu always wana eat outside, if u wana save money is fine wif mi ma, next time juz fetch mi home on time to eat my dinner & u go home eat ur dinner den everi thing is solve le ma, the late is my habit is secondary sch til nw le, u 1 mi 2 change is hard nt 1 day can change everi thing de ma, if u dun like to wait den next time dun wait for mi, since i already get use to it le, u like being to be punctual or even b punctual earlier den other ppl. 4 mi i haf already get use to my own timin le, u 1 mi 2 follow urs is abit hard, nt i dun 1 2 change myself i did try to bt den well im stil the same, if i can change y i always late for work. haiz since nw im nt workin maybe we can meet on fri & sat lo, the rest of the weekdays u can go home & take ur dinner den can save up alot of money liao ma. i myself already felt so stress up le, we always argue bcoz of money if tats the case i might as well gif up my study go work full time hao le. haiz so for now we meet on weekend hao le. maybe is gd 4 both of us oso. den u no nid keep on being so piss off & everi time argue wif mi liao le, i oso dun like to argue wif u. gif each other more personal time ba, u gt so much friends waitin to go out wif u. maybe on weekend we den meet ba. we wil tok again on tis lo. i already felt the pressure haiz....maybe we shld meet abit less wil b better for u & i. i dun even noe 4 my character u can tahan how long, gt a feeling tis relationship won't last long. as wat u tel mi abt my character last sun. my metailty is tat stupid is tat naive is tat childish, wat u 1 mi 2 change. love the person hu they are & nt the person hu change for the sake of another. if for gd well, i of coz wil change bt den again time is concerned, i nid hw long to change myself i oso dunno.....maybe in future or a few yrs down the road ba....my mind is always thinkin, maybe u are right, i keep on assumin too much assume tat things wil work out the way i wanted it. well, im wrong, totally wrong, haiz if i gif u too much pressure, we meet lesser lo, i wil contribute money bt as i say drinks or any dessert i wil pay or we go on dutch wil b more better for both of us ba, i dun wish to argue abt it anymore, dun wish to make both of us sad. since u goin on thailand on mon mornin gif tis 3 days both of us a rest ba. i noe u are stress abt money. next time go out less stay at home often ba. sorri to make u unhappy so much i try my best & do whatever i can to make u happy k.

it's me again, yesterday went to ubi & book my practical 1, n the day of my practical is nearin bcoz is next mon & it's the same day as my dental appointment juz tat different timin, i book in the afternoon hehe...so scare & nervous sia, after all i so long nv touch the bike liao, i scare i might 4gt hw 2 throttle all tis, & especially the hand brake tat keep on makes mi fail my practical de, ubi de hand brake is nt like dear de leh, i oso dunno y, i hope can pass ba, after all i learn so much frm dear liao, haha he say gif mi 10 chances, if i stil cannt pass, den i can 4get abt ridin liao le haha....i oso agree wif him hehe...

yo, finally come back to blog liao le, haha i haf come back from cameron since 1 wk le, bt den i gt no time 2 blog, so now, come back n blog lo, keke....juz nw went to east coast n cyclin, wow tats so shag sia,dear say my balancin n turnin k le, shld go n book my practical 1 soon, haiz juz nw rainin den go parkway there sit down n tok, hmmm if i dun change my mentality n my habit n character, soon dear cannt tahan mi liao le, n he wil b like carol de bf, say buai buai 2 mi le, haiz i try 2 change lo, since dear say if it's for gd den y nt change, haiz so scare 1 day he cannt tahan mi he wil leave mi, looks like i muz stop thinkin abt tis 1 day, if nt really comes true i surely jia lat de, k im goin 2 eat my dinner le, nw waitin for dear de pic den i can upload all inside my gallary :P n dear is plannin to go cameron again on may, haha.... n tis time i muz definitely remember to bring my torchlight n my mp3, if nt along the highway im sure im bore de hehe....

juz nw went to try dear de bike n den wow lao it was heavy lo, more heavy den the 2b bike, n my god de hw m i goin to take class 2 license if it's heavy sia, haiz oh ya i hafn even pass my practical 1 yet, n i think so far already think im mad n crazy already haha...from sharin the experience in those ladies forum n wow all of them are like so clever sia, muz take them for example den i can take my 2b well n haf a determination oso. k let's count 2 wks from now, i shld b able to book practical 1, den renew my membership le. i wil jia you jia you de, all the gers wil support mi de rite. haha...so thick skin :P

i've been thinkin shld i go learn my bike ant, bt den my glove haf throw away liao le, im scare im like last time cant control the bike well n cant balance it well, seein so many gers tat ride, if i stil dun go n learn den someone wil say, *u dun even haf a bike license i dun understand y u inside sbf doin wat* tis phrase i wil always remember bcoz it was say by shoei. yes n it is him hu say mi
bt den wat abt my dental payment i stil gt $700 hafn pay yet. haiz wat m i doin to do, i noe tat my cdc account stil left $90 which means i stil can learn a few practicals bt den i haf fail 3 times, n im pai seh to go n being laugh by the instructor or those ppl hu are learnin their class 2a n class 2. n no ppl pei mi go learn all the while gt dear pei mi go here go there, bt nw if i wana go learn bike no ppl pei mi go wor, wat m i suppose to do haiz shld i go n learn ma, dear has always encouraging mi go n learn n i think he wil definitely support mi go learn de, bt den i cant concentrate sia, eg the close throttle open throttle clutch the gear all tis kind n cdc de bike de brake is so hard to brake sia, haiz wat m i goin to do, alot of ppl haf been encouragin me. bt yet haiz i stil dun dare go n learn. i already gt one scar on my hand liao le, wat if i stil gt another scar den wat m i suppose to do sobzzz.... n i wun b nice liao le. a nice body juz gif mi ruin like tat. teach mi wat shld i do. haiz n im scare i oso dun haf any future so wat gd reason shld i gif myself to go n learn bike??? haiz.....if i really 1 2 go n learn den i shld learn balancin my bicylce well 1st b4 go learnin the bike...haiz....sad, sobz....vex n confuse....

i noe someone is regret knowin me, u can choose to back out now, i dun mind, anyway i noe myself well, im a person wif no future if choosin to leave mi, i dun blame u, i did say b4, tv is my favourite thing which i likes, plus u gt too many appointments n u cant keep on askin mi to join which i dun like rite, i noe u are upset wif mi, bt wat can i do, since u need gf tat can accompany u more often den u go find 1 lo, go find a gf tat can accompany u everi min, everi sec n everi day. i 1 2 enjy my day, dun 1 2 argue wif u, anyway dun think tis wk wil meet u up, since u gt so many appointments which u cant miss any of them. so let it b lo, u go do ur stuff while i go do my stuff, i dun bother u le, u continue go use ur computer ba. bcoz i noe u wun watch tv de as i noe u dislike watchin tv shows. bt i like u cant stop mi.

sobz i juz kana sack from the tan tock seng hospital reason is tat i do things too slow liao le sobz im born to do things slow de ma wat can i do wor, tis is the 2nd time liao le, m i destinated to work as a sales girl rather den work in a office sobz im really sad, my heart is like being stab into pieces sobz and now im sick due to nt drinkin enough water sobz maybe im stupid enough yes n i agree i shld have go die the few yrs back, and i wouldn have the pain rite now, no friends to talk to and where have my friends gone to. they have disappeared since the separation of our sec 4. all gone totally gone, now wat state m i, if i had known tis situation i shld have stay at loyang there my colleagues all there. there are much more fun and i wouldn b so sad now, all bcoz of the 2pid nitec, bcoz of u the 2pid nitec coz mi lost the job tat i like. i hate 2pid nite. now wat m i a ghost or a half dead half ghost i totally no mood at all, i dun feel like eatin i dun feel like anything rite now, im dead a person tat is totally no feelin at all. sobz... haiz wish i didn born in tis world to have so much of pain

dear de bike, wif 4 monsters protectin me hehe where's another monster he is dear lo hehe