i gt say by somebody in friendster n i dunno who is it. is it my best buddy who betray me. other then her who wil be so bo liao go around barkin like a dogs. n onli my best friends know my secret n is already in the past for wat stil nid to go around tellin ppl abt it. im tire of it. if it is u den from now on u no longer is my friend i wil treat u as my FOE. i hate being betray. i tot i could trust u yet in the end u betray mi. tis is onli my conclussion, anyway i stop tellin ppl my secrets anymore in case i kana betray again. once bitten twice shy all ppl cant be trusted. i dun even noe my tis dear can b trusted ant haha... although i really trust him. tis matters already make mi feel sad liao le. i dun wish to bother abt it anymore. u 1 2 tel hu den go ahead ba. i onli can say u are a childish person who forever won't grow up. childish....

happy birthday to u dear. today is dear de birthday wor, cant celebrate wif him arrghhh workin ma, bo bian. anyway im goin to tel u i goin to book you 3 days from next wk haha... so next wk gt 3 days u MUZ spend the day wif mi liao leh, cannt meet ur sec sch friends for badminton nor go to fazer outin liao hor hehe...


argh so sucks man, exams comin soon n its really pretty soon. and next saturday im flyin off to australia wahhaha... to visit my cousin n aunt. haha... so nervous sia, 1st time flying off. cant imagine my nervous look. and the air ticket have been booked liao le. wil be settin off in the mornin so gt to wake up super early. goin for 2 weeks sia, wil u miss mi ant haha.

yesterday ask dear bo liao question haha bt veri bo liao meh, dun think so leh. maybe to u is ba haha... anyway i noe wat is the anz liao haha... anyway thanks for ur advice lo haha... i won't be bother for such a nonsense ppl or rather a jerk. goin out barkin and commentin for other ppl's look when he himself dun even dare to put his own picture stil dare to say until he himself veri nice lookin.

well, i will be changin my blog song soon. once i finish my exam haha... maybe the blog wil be changin the layout oso haha but muz wait til i come back from australia 1st haha.. k so wil stop here den. haha...

so long no blog liao sia, and someone say i too short n too fat.... :( sobzzzz definitely nt my hubby haha if he wana say mi he wil b sayin he himself liao wahahah... well, i dun take it to heart de coz the fact is im really short n fat wat. but well, the person who say mi wil have her retribution n i believe it. i believe in karma. so now i really prayin hard to change myself. stop sayin ppl bad words behind their back, coz i dun 1 2 have any karma for myself or for my family. muz learn to forgive n forget den can stay happy. n the person who say mi arent tat pretty also lo. stil dare to say mi so KNS. humpf~~~ and her word write until machiam like dunno wat sia, cant even read properly well, nvm stil younger den mi wahahah... i think i change quite alot since last time til nw. i mean when i was in secondary sch den ite den til meet dear. all this times i think i change quite alot liao whahaha... i will change for the better again. haha...

exams comin liao sia, yet i stil haven go revise for my work jia lat man, tis time die liao n sure die until veri jia lat. well, wil stop rite here n go back study for my exam liao. n im so excited sia, coz im goin to Australia to meet my cousins n aunt haha. so happy n tis is the 1st time i go overseas sia wahaha... nv been out of singapore b4 other den go to malaysia haha... tats difference from tis time. haha... i scare sia sit inside the areoplane, scare can feel im so high later dunno wat haha... k la. will blog again when im free haha...

so long didn post, muz post a happy thing ma, haha... monday, my teacher say i gt a cute n lovely voice when i speak from the microphone haha... so happy hehe...more funny thing. while dear was buyin my food i went to buy socks n the guy say where is my husband. i was like huh -_- haha i hafn even married to him yet. hmm nt so soon to settle down la haha. think stil gt a few more yrs to go ba. need savings oso ma, my bank is totally dry up liao where gt money to go married haha.

Keys to my heart, some of them like quite true sia haha...

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

i copy this out from the ladies forum alot of meaning.

This is what Oprah had to say about men...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you fromheartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationshipthat's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a manbefore you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was nottreating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".

A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then heprobably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better."

You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.

He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour.

Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...

even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...

compromise is two Way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...

thereis nothing cute.

About baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...

a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...l

ook for someone complimentary...

not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...

when a man always know where you are,

And you're always readily available to him ?

he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women...

You'll make someone smile,

another Rethink her choices,

and another woman prepare.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to Appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

well, im doin my homework n listening to chinese song, the song which i like and i can listen it alot of times haha...im listenin to andy lau song. Wang Le Ying Chang n Jue Bu Fang Qi. in this 2 songs there's alot of meaning really. if u noe tis 2 songs u shld noe wat im thinkin~~~ finally let mi find out the lyrics of this 2 songs. i feel finally my heart was dropping down n nt so heavy after listenin to tis 2 songs.

绝不放弃

听不清喝彩声音

只有你的泪像海浪汇荡在我心里

看身边茫茫人群究竟谁对我还有意义

一直不能忘记

我的勇气曾失落在这里

如今我找回我自己

却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离

我绝不放弃永远爱你

时间空间挡不住不灭的情意

你值得我用一生追寻oh oh

我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定

你是我最依赖的抚慰

我绝不放弃

chorus: 一直不能忘记

我的勇气曾失落在这里

如今我找回我自己
却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离

我绝不放弃永远爱你

时间空间挡不住不灭的情意
你值得我用一生追寻oh oh
我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定
你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定

你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃

忘了隐藏

我一直都以为可以把你轻易忘记

只是你的背影一直还在我心底

天天想你夜夜哭泣不能自己

想要逃避已经来不及

说什么海角到天即说什么今生永不离

你的一字一句一直徘回在心底

天天想起夜夜回忆眼泪再继续

应该放弃找个人代替

告诉我如何把你忘

告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上没有爱没有思念的地方

告诉我该怎么藏

告诉我如何把你遗忘

所谓地老天荒

只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

chorus:

我一直都以为可以把你轻易忘记

只是你的背影一直还在我心底

天天想你夜夜哭泣不能自己
想要逃避已经来不及
说什么海角到天即说什么今生永不离

你的一字一句一直徘回在心底
天天想起夜夜回忆眼泪再继续
应该放弃找个人代替

告诉我如何把你忘
告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上

没有爱没有思念的地方

告诉我该怎么藏
告诉我如何把你遗忘
所谓地老天荒

只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

chours:

告诉我如何把你忘

告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上

没有爱没有思念的地方
告诉我该怎么藏告诉我如何把你遗忘所谓地老天荒
只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

是否情路太难你让我一个游游荡荡让一个人心伤

i dunno wats wrong wif mi, bt im nt like u i cant think within 1 nite, i need time, i need to cool down. i wun meet u for quite some time perhaps. i dun think u can tahan anymore of my temper. i tried my best not to vent on u bt things just come tat way n i just acted so rash which i myself couldnt even control. i wish to be alone for quite some time without you by my side. maybe its gd for both of us, meantime u can go n do watever things u wana do i wun bother as long as u happy in it. mean time i wil concentrate on my studies well u concentrate on watever things u do. hopefully can celebrate with u on ur bday ba~~ if nt den wait for mi come back frm Aust den say ba.

我的心意碎了，人也累了，一切都不想再动了

haha i feel like laughin sia, haha... i juz delete my last yr post which contains sad memory, coz i dun wana go n remember those memory anymore. n i realise my post abit like Piao Ling sia haha... c liao oso abit erm feel abit funny haha... now i noe hu is the guy tat really treat mi well, in fact is the one tat i have been for 1 yr goin on 13 months haha... can c from my post from sadness to happiness haha... well, gt to go bath le, c later gt meet u ant if dun haf den i wil continue delete it my past yr post. thanks for sayang mi so much n i really treasure it alot wor. :p thanks dear muack~~

such a boring weekend, *yawnz* its a rainin sunday, haha... n im goin back sch tml again haiz so sian, be it a work or study its forever so boring de, y huh... i oso dunno y, hmmm onli can say is being a adult its so boring sia, haha...i prefer to be a kid, no worries haiz so sian... wat to do neh... n oh shit de, cant even find my best friend now. wonder where has she disappear to. hmmm... well, im kinda lazy recently or rather been really lazy really. haha...

well, looks like it's been quite awhile since i last blog. what have i done recently, busy studyin wat else can i do huh. hmm... tis wk is a 1 wk holi for mi, tats great isn't it haha. k got to study for my common test for next tues, when i tot i could have the money to go take my bike prac. oh for goodness sake how on earth to find the money to go for prac. haha.... searching for sponsor to sponsor mi go bike prac sia haha.. ya rite in my dream huh. tats rite haha...k well, juz finish my series 1 of sailormoon DVD haha. isn't it great. oh boy tats in my imagination when Tuxudo Mars is so hunk haha... juz like Chen Lin haha... faint, when can i stop dreamin n wake up from the reality haiz how i wish to b a kid sia, i dun wana b adult, it's forever so stressful. im nt childish k. IM NOT CHILDISH, im juz innocent tats all, tats my character isn't it ma? hmmm... i hate u keep on sayin mi childish when everi time i acts like a child. haha... tats mi ma, i like the way i'm. haiz y muz i change bcoz u ask mi to haiz... i like being a childish ger haha... bt sometimes being a childish ger looks abit hmmm weird to mi when i go out wif my buddies. hmmm... whenever i goes out with them y i always gt the thinkin tat they are stil so childish, bt when im wif him eh wat kind of mind m i thinkin, bt hey i have change alot OK. sometimes being childish wun die rite. so y cant I. so irritatin humpf~~~ well, hack care liao. got to go back n study liao haiz so sickenin n borin life....

wow, since like i have been a long time didn come in to blog liao le, well, kind of lazy to blog haha...juz came back from cameron highland, tis time round the holidays are short sia, n dear's bike broke down on the way going up haiz, sad sia, haha... bt i did enjoy myself except kana gif mosquito bite sia, so many red dots haha....n i oso take a pic of mi sittin at rachel's S4 bike haha, wait til the pic is up den post inside here haha, is cool man haha.... hopefully next time can go again haha... i wun mind go cameron again n again haha.... the places is cool, so far the onli place that i like is cameron highland haha....KL is a borin place haha... is hot n jam nothing special to shop oso haha....n i have uploaded a new song cal "LING" sing by Ke You Lun. dunno hu izzit haha coz i find the song quite nice after watching the MARS. n chen lin was so cool sia. haha... ridin the fazer wouldnt mind watch again haha... which i juz did hehe... n 2day is National day sia, n oso 1 yr anniversary wif my dear haha... so fast 1 yr liao. hmmm cant imagine sia haha.... k, well i wil stop here liao le, wil catch up wif u again ba. gt to go do my home work which i hafn even done yet. kind of lazy to do so sian, coz holiday mood ma haha....

so sian sia... haha 2day gt S&W n i dun wana go so go take mc from polyclinic haha... so sian sia... ah dear doin course cant disturb him while den im playin the maplestory game lo haha... yawnz times flies so fast hehe going to 1 yr liao sia... so fast hor.. haiz own him too much of ren qing liao le, PC money stil hafn pay him sia, den the sailormoon vcd wow seh, where can i find tis type of guy in the world. haha i tot gd guys all extinct liao le, bt im wrong stil gt some in the world haha.. ah dear is 1 of them lo. haha... well national day itself he's on duty so celebrate on the followin day. haha... well, hmmm grow up ar, mentality grow up or wat neh?? haha... haiz can i dun grow up i wana b children haha... children no headache de, adult gt alot of headache sia, worry abt money la, den relationship la, den blah blah blah.... lots to worry abt. haiz...k la i go back play game liao le so borin....

think its such a long time since i post inside here haha.... wat have i been busy wif??? busyin wif sch work lo den wat else... den busy playin the maple game haha...so dun haf time to come online. yesterday nite went to perlin n haf dinner n guess wat on the way back saw mel sia haha my cousin haha... so coincidence sia.... think later after doin my home work i den go amk find her since she's workin there 2day. haha... well in my class it happens to have a ger which i dislike so much sia she's damn irritatin n damn fan lo... dislike her to the core. haha... think she gt a irritatin face pluz her character sucks too. she's juz like a follower everi where we go she oso wana follow even to the toilet. although tis doesn happen to me bt im helpin another friend to say it out haha... coz i think quite a few of us cant tahan her way too. she's too idiotic n irritatin maybe she's stil a kid ba haha... stil dunno hw to think unlike my sec sch friends haha...well gt no choice gt to do everi thing i can to get rid of her...well gt to go do my home work liao stil hafn done yet. hmmm today dunno wana go join joo gong at bugis ma??? maybe gt go ba haha i oso veri long no c them liao le haha... especially stacey u c haha... she meetin sab n xue ni at around 2+ bt i dun think im goin dun feel like seein her face haha... so i better meet them in the evenin time haha...

weekend is goin over soon, tml is sch day again, haiz...so sian, sch starts no more goin out late late le, muz come home early get ready for the sch the next day. fri nite was a gd nite sia, met up wif a lot of female riders, gt chilli, nicholoasonbaby, narada, myusha, nedomar haha think tis all ba, all tis are the ladies riders tat i hafn met yet de all. a big thanks to finix for waitin me at the dam hehe....tire tis 2 days bt enjoyable haha...complete my homework bt muz revise abit on wat teacher teaches us ma hehe bt i cant remember any leh, maybe i was day dreamin haha k im goin to get my lunch den bath den if can meet him earlier liao le cya... :D

so tire today sch reopen, n guess wat my new class contains onli 2 guys n the oldest guy is the same age as dear dear sia, born in 1978 haha...n onli a few ppl born in the same yr as mi nia sia. saw jia liang today haha...n happen to see kai xian oso, juz nw on my way out from sch saw her bf...n i feel so hungry once i reach home. coz from mornin i eat until juz nw i reach home i den eat wor, if nt hw come i wil feel so hungry haha...n my time table come out le. Thursday is the day tat i wil reach home late. 5.15pm den dismiss from sch, so sian haiz... n tml dunno go wat Bukit Timah dunno at where n onli our class is selected. so damn borin...got to go photocopy paper later on, maybe in the evenin when i feel more cooler ba. nw i feel so tire sia, feel like slppin bt cannt if nt later in the nite i cant go back slp haiz... tml is a borin day for me again haha... bt times flies really fast, imagine next yr of 2day i wil b in 2nd yr liao le, n is the last yr haha... hopefully i can graduate frm it n move to poly. if nt go back work lo...earn more money ma.

And imagine quite a few junior from my sec sch is the same class as mi. haha cannt imagine tat rite i oso didn think of it. well, dear nw attendin course so didn msg mi all tis. stil waitin for him to haf a good tok wif him wor, we lack of communication n everi time i wana tok to him i dunno hw to face him onli noe hw to use net, which is the wrong way n tis doesn help in our relation wor. i wish next time i gt any problems i could juz tel him in face. hopefully our relation stil can survive ba. stil gt hope to amend it. go do my sch stuff le, n rest oso haha...

finally come back here le, pc juz came back to me tis mornin. n i didn noe i had made u upset again. tis 1 wk i haf been thinkin y i keep on treatin u tat way n i really dunno i myself oso feel terrible oso. haf u ever regret ur decision ma??? i really duno. u are a type of guy which most of the gers would like. i dunno y i keep on makin u upset bt how m i suppose to change my character when i haf tis character since young. i noe im a irresponsible person bt wat can i do i haf tat attitude since young. who can change mi. lack of teachin maybe tats the thing. n im always slower den other ppl, n u noe im the person tat toks wif out thinkin maybe im straight forward tats y. n maybe tis is the reason ba. i keep on wantin to haf a chance to tok to u, bt always cant find any chance haiz... i do knows tat 1 day u really wil explode ur temper n the endurance u oso wun b able to take it. i do noe of tis circumstances. i dunno when wil tis day arrive bt den i cant c anymore of future onli present bcoz of the way tat i treated u. even if 1 day, there's a ger standin in front of u tat likes u or u like her, i dun even mind bcoz i dun even treat u so gd. keep on makin u upset, if ever u can find happiness 1 day i wun mind. coz i noe the fault lies in mi, i dunno hw to b a gd gf of urs.

the leaving of mi, wouldn't take away the sky of urs.

it wil onli b a part of memory of urs, n the road we go wil b even longer den nw.

hmmm, forgot wat is the poem le. onli remember a few phase. heard tis phase from QIAN NU YU HUN. xiao qian say to shu dai haha....

it's been ages since i blog, well due to my computer was down, n there was no way tat i could blog so therefore, gt to miz my blog wil b back in a few months times. c ya

i felt so stress up, i gt to pay lots of things, my hp bill, internet bill, my dental installment, my bike practical, even nw i stil gt to help pay my home utilities. i gt lots of burden liao le, plus ITE has accepted mi, n now i oso gt to pay my sch fees myself. i cant even breathe. for now, i 1 2 earn money as much as i can. so for now, i wil start to find job liao le, no matter hw many jobs i work. n i wun b able to meet u as much as last time. for mi money is more important den everi thing else. either i gif up my bike or my studies. u cant understand wat im sayin den i say 4get it liao rite. so y stil bother n ask. i juz cant understand it. since u duno wat im sayin den dun bother to know la. kaoz... wait til im in a better mood den say ba... tml i oso dun think i wil b meetin u....

last nite outin was so fantastic haha...quite a few female riders turn up wor... seein so many female riders tis makes mi feel like chiongin to get my 2B license haha...i haf fail 5 times le, bt den well, i wil jia you de, there's definitely 1 day i wil pass my prac 1 de haha tml wil b my prac 1 again liao le haha....so nervous bt den last nite went to buy the guards le, to protect my knee cap n my elbow. i dun 1 2 fall down again sia, i wil jia you de hopefully can pass tml haha bt i dun think so ba, i muz think on positive side n nt negative side, muz haf more confident n tats the way man... cheers to those ladies riders out there...i wish myself all the best haha...

juz went to c dear de blog, n from last yr til nw, we seem to haf alot of arguein especially the first few months when im so stubborn n my temper is hot too, bt nw do we stil haf the same problem again or another problem ne, let me c wat haf i change for the past 8 months. i felt so silly last time haha... oso dunno y i haf the reaction the last time. arguein abt the pic he takes wif gers all tis bt den well, now i noe tat he can b trusted n i totally trust him. wat more could i b worry abt. n the promises i haf given all i haf done it sia... cannt sit on other guys de bike, n hmm cannt meet guys ba.. is tat so haha so tirin

hmmm i haf change the word 'dun tok to mi' tis words, which he dislike alot de haha tis is the onli thing i haf change other den tat wat haf i change so far, discussin abt meetin ppl, other ppl, all tis we haf discuss rite hmm so now gt to change my character liao le haha... i seem so bad for the first few months. guess now i could onli change for the better, tml he's goin for his thailand trip while im goin for my practical 1. i stil feel abit nervous abt it too. going slp nw le tml early mornin goin for my dental checkup den go temple pray liao le... muz remember to come back in one piece. dun 1 u 2 haf any injuries all tis & tat...dislike him to go so far especially on water festival is so dangerous when i heard kester tellin him tat it wil b dangerous so ride carefully. it gives me creeps abt it. anyway im goin to brush my teeth nw le haha....

tokin to keane nw. he just had his accident yesterday, fracture his wrist, broken knee & groin abrasion funny is his dick oso muz do dressin. i was askin him stil can haf sex after recover ma. haha so funny if cannt stand den jia lat liao. den he wil b a tai jian liao le haha...oops seems like im so evil sia...haha