omg i have stop blogging for 1 whole month times flies sia haha... been busy with my cousin for the past few weeks. they came back to spend chinese new yr so of course must accompany them so got no time online also haha... abit miss them sia i even cry when i send them off at airport i really cry haiz now when i think of the scenery i will always want to cry. but then what to do anyway hopefully can go to australia again this yr haha... im goin on a diet soon very soon haha... hopefully by june i can at least lose a few kg ba haha....im so fat sia see liao also scare haha... make a bet with my uncle. promise him that when he came back to singapore next yr i will slim down for him to see haha... hopefully can slim down ba. muz have the determination. haha... is time to change the format of my blog liao sia is so hmmm how to say sia so outdated haha...

had a wonderful 20th birthday last night haha... went to have steamboat at beach road there. then following went to pitstop and cut birthday cake so special sia. all thanks to fazer guys. haha... without them the night won't be so shiok man. haha.. and i'm planning for next year birthday liao. 1 more yr to go man. haha... and thanks for my dear dear also haha... really thanks alot sia. is more fun than last year 2005. haha... and i can't believe i turn 20 sia. haha... hmmm must be more responsibile, and must act more mature in thinking cannot be so childish in action because some piggy guy don't like it. must change my thinking all this. haha... hmmm... im planning for a chalet and buffet for next year 21st birthday haha... and i of coz will invite fazer guys, my best friends, my relatives, and many more haha... hopefully is a good year after all haha...

wow so long no post liao sia. and is 2006 this year. time flies so fast. and im turnin 20 next monday haha... so shiok hehe... bought a new hp sia, is a birthday present from him haha... sweet hor haha... hmmm anyway nt much to blog oso. kinda of lazy haha... will be updatin my song soon. but dunno wat song i want to put leh haha... ok la. stop here

this few days really alot of things happen to me. i don't know whether am i the one who cause the problem or wat. anyway i have give hope liao le. regardless of what result it is my heart got no reaction. i don't know am i trying to bluff myself or am i trying to console myself. sometimes i wonder what i like in you. u are not romantic at all even when im angry you just don't know how to cheer me up. haiz i really don't know. maybe after all we are not really that suitable ba. let's give ourself a break ba. if u really wish to end it, well then i won't stop you also. hopefully you can find a better girl in the future ba. hopefully won't be like me so immature so childish. find a character that is the same as you, same interest as you, same age as you will be better. once a mirror is broken no matter how hard you try to put it back, it will never regain the same thing again. this is what my cousin that tell me before. the feelings will never be the same again once the mirror is broken. what i'm going to do now is concentrate on my studies. don't think i will be going to the christmas this year liao le. no reasons just don't feel like going. will i feel sad when the thing really happen. i don't know, i only know i will control myself not to drop any tears from now. if can maybe we should really give ourself a break then start all over again when we really know where does the problem lies on.

thanks for readin my blog lo. who badmouth u or say anything nasty abt u. i totally gt no idea at all lo. is u who dun 1 2 contact mi alone. i LAN LAN lo. i cant say anything. ever since u nv contact mi at all, i gt alot of problems also lo. who can i tel to. NO ppl lo. normally is u who are there to share my problems with mi gif mi advice bt now leh. u are not even there lo. i totally gt NO FRIENDS at all lo. who can i tel to i ask u. i dun even tel my bf my things lo. even when im sad or wat i just write inside my blog if nt i just keep inside my heart. i gt no ppl to share with lo. aiya forget it la, forgot u now already got ur ite friends liao le. u gt any problem can just tel them and me leh, i dun even haf a single friend lo. a close friend oso dun haf lo. last time use to be u but now since u dun bother to contact me. den i just take it our friendship ended at 2002. the yr when we graduate from xinmin secondary. our friendship is gone. no more you in my memory no more this person. u are just a HI BYE friend to me. from now i wun b bother abt ur thing ur life anything at all. i totally dun gif it a damn liao le. even u being bully by ur 2pid bf or whatever shit it is i oso wun gif it a damn.

think im going to cancel my bike thing soon. haha... can feel that there's a change in me since i return from australia. now c bike like machiam no feeling liao. gt bike den bike lo no bike den no bike lo. seldom purposely wil go n bio bike nowadays. tis is wat i sense in myself. i like australia there. haha... feel like movin there leh haha... bt nt nw la, i mean when i reach 30+ or 40+ go there enjoy. there really can relax sia. i go there onli for 13 days i already gain so much weight liao le. haha... i think hor if 1 day my ah ma really go liao i think im goin bersek. haha... i cant imagine without her in my life. she's more close to me. miss my small little cousin jing. and i miss the sky over there n the weather. k la, another 2 more mths goin to c them soon liao le. haha... they are comin back for chinese new yr wahahah... cool isn it. although my cousin can b irritatin bt den i dote them the most dunno y oso haha... k la. wil write again when im free.


nowadays keep on addicted to my maple game haha...

it's been so long since i last post. think im going to find a new blogskin haha... n im so excited to share my excitement to him haha.... got lots n lots of things to tel him haha...

is my 1st time, i feel so cold n
i felt so high and excited. i almost can feel it's coming
i feel so high up so excited n so lookin forward.
i felt so giddy but after i done it i felt so release
but im stil so cold in it. can u guess wat im tokin abt haha




its............. Aeroplane that im tokin about. haha... it is my 1st time sittin wat haha
it's been such a long time since i play my maple so im goin to play it today haha.... and i borrow 3 storybooks from my cousin. they are harry potter haha... 3 thick books sia. hopefully can complete readin when they came back to singapore next yr. n i think i gain alot of weight sia haha... keep on eat n eat haha....well think im goin to find a blogskin soon, den ask my dear help mi do liao le haha....

i gt say by somebody in friendster n i dunno who is it. is it my best buddy who betray me. other then her who wil be so bo liao go around barkin like a dogs. n onli my best friends know my secret n is already in the past for wat stil nid to go around tellin ppl abt it. im tire of it. if it is u den from now on u no longer is my friend i wil treat u as my FOE. i hate being betray. i tot i could trust u yet in the end u betray mi. tis is onli my conclussion, anyway i stop tellin ppl my secrets anymore in case i kana betray again. once bitten twice shy all ppl cant be trusted. i dun even noe my tis dear can b trusted ant haha... although i really trust him. tis matters already make mi feel sad liao le. i dun wish to bother abt it anymore. u 1 2 tel hu den go ahead ba. i onli can say u are a childish person who forever won't grow up. childish....

happy birthday to u dear. today is dear de birthday wor, cant celebrate wif him arrghhh workin ma, bo bian. anyway im goin to tel u i goin to book you 3 days from next wk haha... so next wk gt 3 days u MUZ spend the day wif mi liao leh, cannt meet ur sec sch friends for badminton nor go to fazer outin liao hor hehe...


argh so sucks man, exams comin soon n its really pretty soon. and next saturday im flyin off to australia wahhaha... to visit my cousin n aunt. haha... so nervous sia, 1st time flying off. cant imagine my nervous look. and the air ticket have been booked liao le. wil be settin off in the mornin so gt to wake up super early. goin for 2 weeks sia, wil u miss mi ant haha.

yesterday ask dear bo liao question haha bt veri bo liao meh, dun think so leh. maybe to u is ba haha... anyway i noe wat is the anz liao haha... anyway thanks for ur advice lo haha... i won't be bother for such a nonsense ppl or rather a jerk. goin out barkin and commentin for other ppl's look when he himself dun even dare to put his own picture stil dare to say until he himself veri nice lookin.

well, i will be changin my blog song soon. once i finish my exam haha... maybe the blog wil be changin the layout oso haha but muz wait til i come back from australia 1st haha.. k so wil stop here den. haha...

so long no blog liao sia, and someone say i too short n too fat.... :( sobzzzz definitely nt my hubby haha if he wana say mi he wil b sayin he himself liao wahahah... well, i dun take it to heart de coz the fact is im really short n fat wat. but well, the person who say mi wil have her retribution n i believe it. i believe in karma. so now i really prayin hard to change myself. stop sayin ppl bad words behind their back, coz i dun 1 2 have any karma for myself or for my family. muz learn to forgive n forget den can stay happy. n the person who say mi arent tat pretty also lo. stil dare to say mi so KNS. humpf~~~ and her word write until machiam like dunno wat sia, cant even read properly well, nvm stil younger den mi wahahah... i think i change quite alot since last time til nw. i mean when i was in secondary sch den ite den til meet dear. all this times i think i change quite alot liao whahaha... i will change for the better again. haha...

exams comin liao sia, yet i stil haven go revise for my work jia lat man, tis time die liao n sure die until veri jia lat. well, wil stop rite here n go back study for my exam liao. n im so excited sia, coz im goin to Australia to meet my cousins n aunt haha. so happy n tis is the 1st time i go overseas sia wahaha... nv been out of singapore b4 other den go to malaysia haha... tats difference from tis time. haha... i scare sia sit inside the areoplane, scare can feel im so high later dunno wat haha... k la. will blog again when im free haha...

so long didn post, muz post a happy thing ma, haha... monday, my teacher say i gt a cute n lovely voice when i speak from the microphone haha... so happy hehe...more funny thing. while dear was buyin my food i went to buy socks n the guy say where is my husband. i was like huh -_- haha i hafn even married to him yet. hmm nt so soon to settle down la haha. think stil gt a few more yrs to go ba. need savings oso ma, my bank is totally dry up liao where gt money to go married haha.

Keys to my heart, some of them like quite true sia haha...

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

i copy this out from the ladies forum alot of meaning.

This is what Oprah had to say about men...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you fromheartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationshipthat's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a manbefore you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was nottreating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".

A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then heprobably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better."

You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.

He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour.

Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...

even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...

compromise is two Way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...

thereis nothing cute.

About baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...

a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...l

ook for someone complimentary...

not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...

when a man always know where you are,

And you're always readily available to him ?

he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women...

You'll make someone smile,

another Rethink her choices,

and another woman prepare.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to Appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

well, im doin my homework n listening to chinese song, the song which i like and i can listen it alot of times haha...im listenin to andy lau song. Wang Le Ying Chang n Jue Bu Fang Qi. in this 2 songs there's alot of meaning really. if u noe tis 2 songs u shld noe wat im thinkin~~~ finally let mi find out the lyrics of this 2 songs. i feel finally my heart was dropping down n nt so heavy after listenin to tis 2 songs.

绝不放弃

听不清喝彩声音

只有你的泪像海浪汇荡在我心里

看身边茫茫人群究竟谁对我还有意义

一直不能忘记

我的勇气曾失落在这里

如今我找回我自己

却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离

我绝不放弃永远爱你

时间空间挡不住不灭的情意

你值得我用一生追寻oh oh

我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定

你是我最依赖的抚慰

我绝不放弃

chorus: 一直不能忘记

我的勇气曾失落在这里

如今我找回我自己
却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离

我绝不放弃永远爱你

时间空间挡不住不灭的情意
你值得我用一生追寻oh oh
我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定
你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定

你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃

忘了隐藏

我一直都以为可以把你轻易忘记

只是你的背影一直还在我心底

天天想你夜夜哭泣不能自己

想要逃避已经来不及

说什么海角到天即说什么今生永不离

你的一字一句一直徘回在心底

天天想起夜夜回忆眼泪再继续

应该放弃找个人代替

告诉我如何把你忘

告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上没有爱没有思念的地方

告诉我该怎么藏

告诉我如何把你遗忘

所谓地老天荒

只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

chorus:

我一直都以为可以把你轻易忘记

只是你的背影一直还在我心底

天天想你夜夜哭泣不能自己
想要逃避已经来不及
说什么海角到天即说什么今生永不离

你的一字一句一直徘回在心底
天天想起夜夜回忆眼泪再继续
应该放弃找个人代替

告诉我如何把你忘
告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上

没有爱没有思念的地方

告诉我该怎么藏
告诉我如何把你遗忘
所谓地老天荒

只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

chours:

告诉我如何把你忘

告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上

没有爱没有思念的地方
告诉我该怎么藏告诉我如何把你遗忘所谓地老天荒
只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

是否情路太难你让我一个游游荡荡让一个人心伤

i dunno wats wrong wif mi, bt im nt like u i cant think within 1 nite, i need time, i need to cool down. i wun meet u for quite some time perhaps. i dun think u can tahan anymore of my temper. i tried my best not to vent on u bt things just come tat way n i just acted so rash which i myself couldnt even control. i wish to be alone for quite some time without you by my side. maybe its gd for both of us, meantime u can go n do watever things u wana do i wun bother as long as u happy in it. mean time i wil concentrate on my studies well u concentrate on watever things u do. hopefully can celebrate with u on ur bday ba~~ if nt den wait for mi come back frm Aust den say ba.

我的心意碎了，人也累了，一切都不想再动了

haha i feel like laughin sia, haha... i juz delete my last yr post which contains sad memory, coz i dun wana go n remember those memory anymore. n i realise my post abit like Piao Ling sia haha... c liao oso abit erm feel abit funny haha... now i noe hu is the guy tat really treat mi well, in fact is the one tat i have been for 1 yr goin on 13 months haha... can c from my post from sadness to happiness haha... well, gt to go bath le, c later gt meet u ant if dun haf den i wil continue delete it my past yr post. thanks for sayang mi so much n i really treasure it alot wor. :p thanks dear muack~~

such a boring weekend, *yawnz* its a rainin sunday, haha... n im goin back sch tml again haiz so sian, be it a work or study its forever so boring de, y huh... i oso dunno y, hmmm onli can say is being a adult its so boring sia, haha...i prefer to be a kid, no worries haiz so sian... wat to do neh... n oh shit de, cant even find my best friend now. wonder where has she disappear to. hmmm... well, im kinda lazy recently or rather been really lazy really. haha...

well, looks like it's been quite awhile since i last blog. what have i done recently, busy studyin wat else can i do huh. hmm... tis wk is a 1 wk holi for mi, tats great isn't it haha. k got to study for my common test for next tues, when i tot i could have the money to go take my bike prac. oh for goodness sake how on earth to find the money to go for prac. haha.... searching for sponsor to sponsor mi go bike prac sia haha.. ya rite in my dream huh. tats rite haha...k well, juz finish my series 1 of sailormoon DVD haha. isn't it great. oh boy tats in my imagination when Tuxudo Mars is so hunk haha... juz like Chen Lin haha... faint, when can i stop dreamin n wake up from the reality haiz how i wish to b a kid sia, i dun wana b adult, it's forever so stressful. im nt childish k. IM NOT CHILDISH, im juz innocent tats all, tats my character isn't it ma? hmmm... i hate u keep on sayin mi childish when everi time i acts like a child. haha... tats mi ma, i like the way i'm. haiz y muz i change bcoz u ask mi to haiz... i like being a childish ger haha... bt sometimes being a childish ger looks abit hmmm weird to mi when i go out wif my buddies. hmmm... whenever i goes out with them y i always gt the thinkin tat they are stil so childish, bt when im wif him eh wat kind of mind m i thinkin, bt hey i have change alot OK. sometimes being childish wun die rite. so y cant I. so irritatin humpf~~~ well, hack care liao. got to go back n study liao haiz so sickenin n borin life....

wow, since like i have been a long time didn come in to blog liao le, well, kind of lazy to blog haha...juz came back from cameron highland, tis time round the holidays are short sia, n dear's bike broke down on the way going up haiz, sad sia, haha... bt i did enjoy myself except kana gif mosquito bite sia, so many red dots haha....n i oso take a pic of mi sittin at rachel's S4 bike haha, wait til the pic is up den post inside here haha, is cool man haha.... hopefully next time can go again haha... i wun mind go cameron again n again haha.... the places is cool, so far the onli place that i like is cameron highland haha....KL is a borin place haha... is hot n jam nothing special to shop oso haha....n i have uploaded a new song cal "LING" sing by Ke You Lun. dunno hu izzit haha coz i find the song quite nice after watching the MARS. n chen lin was so cool sia. haha... ridin the fazer wouldnt mind watch again haha... which i juz did hehe... n 2day is National day sia, n oso 1 yr anniversary wif my dear haha... so fast 1 yr liao. hmmm cant imagine sia haha.... k, well i wil stop here liao le, wil catch up wif u again ba. gt to go do my home work which i hafn even done yet. kind of lazy to do so sian, coz holiday mood ma haha....

so sian sia... haha 2day gt S&W n i dun wana go so go take mc from polyclinic haha... so sian sia... ah dear doin course cant disturb him while den im playin the maplestory game lo haha... yawnz times flies so fast hehe going to 1 yr liao sia... so fast hor.. haiz own him too much of ren qing liao le, PC money stil hafn pay him sia, den the sailormoon vcd wow seh, where can i find tis type of guy in the world. haha i tot gd guys all extinct liao le, bt im wrong stil gt some in the world haha.. ah dear is 1 of them lo. haha... well national day itself he's on duty so celebrate on the followin day. haha... well, hmmm grow up ar, mentality grow up or wat neh?? haha... haiz can i dun grow up i wana b children haha... children no headache de, adult gt alot of headache sia, worry abt money la, den relationship la, den blah blah blah.... lots to worry abt. haiz...k la i go back play game liao le so borin....

think its such a long time since i post inside here haha.... wat have i been busy wif??? busyin wif sch work lo den wat else... den busy playin the maple game haha...so dun haf time to come online. yesterday nite went to perlin n haf dinner n guess wat on the way back saw mel sia haha my cousin haha... so coincidence sia.... think later after doin my home work i den go amk find her since she's workin there 2day. haha... well in my class it happens to have a ger which i dislike so much sia she's damn irritatin n damn fan lo... dislike her to the core. haha... think she gt a irritatin face pluz her character sucks too. she's juz like a follower everi where we go she oso wana follow even to the toilet. although tis doesn happen to me bt im helpin another friend to say it out haha... coz i think quite a few of us cant tahan her way too. she's too idiotic n irritatin maybe she's stil a kid ba haha... stil dunno hw to think unlike my sec sch friends haha...well gt no choice gt to do everi thing i can to get rid of her...well gt to go do my home work liao stil hafn done yet. hmmm today dunno wana go join joo gong at bugis ma??? maybe gt go ba haha i oso veri long no c them liao le haha... especially stacey u c haha... she meetin sab n xue ni at around 2+ bt i dun think im goin dun feel like seein her face haha... so i better meet them in the evenin time haha...