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dar, as im doing the ICA2 for Macroeconomic, my thoughts is all you. coz i remember how you guide me how to draw the diagram in the MS word, how you guide me how to do all my ICA. now without you beside me i feel so uneasy. you are the man that i have met who knows everything. until now i still cant accept the fact that you have left me. i have been putting strong upfront. but deep inside my heart i missed you so much. looking at the wallpaper of the pic that i last took on you at ikea. i can't help not to think of you. i have been living in guilt. i keep on thinking is it my fault that causes this to happen. if i have been more curious to go inside room and find out what things drop or even shout at you. would i be able to stop this from happening. there's no what if i know. but i really wish the clock can go back on time. i think this guilt inside me will follow me all the way till im dead ba. we got so many plans and things want to do together yet you didn deliver them. we say to go on a couple trip during our 20 yrs wedding anniversary but it can't be done anymore. we say want to bring the kids to melbourne to watch the penqguin island and this cant be fulfil anymore. we also say want to bring the kids to where our honeymoon is. this also cant be fulfil anymore. i always feel you can do better than i am in this family. why the one who left is not me. why!!!! the house is so quiet without you around. your coughing, your talking. who is going to fulfil the emptiness in my heart. dar, you know the christmas song right. all i want for christmas is you. but now i wanted to say is all i want is for u to come back to me. i know is impossible.