stop rushing me

dardar, do you know ur car now is a big issue. i want to wait for the probate letter to be out then sell but sis keep on chasing me asking me to call maybank to reprocess the car. i feel like i cant breathe anymore. im being push to the walls. i want to sell the car and get the proceeds back. i'm so tired dealing your car seriously. why you must leave me behind. can i join you instead. i'm so afraid my mental cant cope any longer. i really want a break. can i just run away and leave everything behind? i can't coz i still got the 3 kids. i got no more me time life. all my life now is running between the 3 kids. i have the rights to make decision right. is it because of your endless contributing and thus your body cannt handle the stress? thats why you leave me so sudden. i also feel like joining you but i still got the 3 kids and especially meimei is still so young. i want to see them grow up also. but will my body able to handle the stress till then? i got no idea. life is so fragile nowadays. who knows the next one might be me leaving the world. the kids is now my strength for me to carry on. i cant collapse, but nobody can tell what will happen next. i only know i'm so tired, be it mentally or physically. i'm not used to the routine now but i got no choice do i.