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dar, today i went to find dr choi to do blood test since the DPS im applying also request me to have the latest blood results. then i tell dr choi i want to do the ECG since of your episode and last 3 weeks i told him i don't know is it due to my emotional stress or psychology issue my heart feel very heavy. there are times whereby i need to have a deep breathing. and just now the ECG results doesn look good. dr choi say my heart rate is indeed quite low. so he going to refer me to heart specialist at SKH. and i receive the appointment quite fast and is after CNY. i don't know how the outcome will be. but i need to write a WILL ASAP. pei jing say death is not scary the one who suffer is normally the one who live behind. i cant bear the thought if really something happen to me the kids how. although nothing is done yet i should not think so much. but i cant help not to think since my mum died of cardiac arrest or heart attack. what are the chances that i wont get it. and owen had asthma some more. all could be link. i'm praying that the DPS can be approved and at least the kids will have something the next time i'm not around. but for their sake i will try to lose weight try to stay healthy try my all means to bring them up. the thought of them being an orphan i can't imagine that. and my dad i only left me also. no matter what i will try my very best to stay as healthy as i can. to protect my heart protect the kids.